I'm Sorry

An apology to one of my dearest friends..

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you didn't say goodbye?

Do you remember 3 months ago
When you never said that you were leaving?

Cuz I remember 3 months ago,
Missing you everyday.

And now,
You're back,
Today.

I thought that you were never coming back.

I thought that you were gone forever.

So when you messaged me again,
I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

I smiled wide and laughed to myself,
For you've always been one of my best friends.

And I knew that we'd be there for each other,
We'd be there until the end.

But so much had changed in 3 months time,
New people and emotions.

I didn't know what to expect,
And I don't think you did either.

We tried starting where we had left off,
But it was just....different.

Your feelings changed,
But mine stayed the same.

Did I toy with your emotions?
Did I cause you inside pain?
Is there any way I hurt you?
I need you to tell me.

And I'm truly truly sorry,
See, these words I write are truth.
Please forgive me, my best friend,
Because I need you.

Did I make you feel embarrassed?
Did I cause your heart to break?
Is there any way to help you?
I need to know today.


And I really just had nothing to say.
The fact that you were there,
Took my breath away.

And I really didn't know what to do.
The fact that you were there,
Made me stare at you.

But now it seems I ruined the day,
Just like I do with everything else.

I guess that you could call me clumsy,
Not just physically, but emotionally too.

If only you had told me sooner..
Maybe I could've prevented this.

It's not your fault, it's mine,
And I'm not proud of it.

I just feel terrible,
I think I might just cry.

I swear that this is truth,
To you I cannot lie.

Can you just talk to me,
And stop ignoring my apologies?

I need your forgiveness,
I need to know you're okay.

You ask me why I care?
Well, it's because you're like a brother.
You're like the brother that I never had.

And I don't want that to change,
You're my mega bff!

Don't you need me too?
Can't you see I'm sad?

I'm sorry for this poem,
It's not my best at all.

But I'm having trouble forming words
To just describe this all.

And if you won't forgive me,
Then I must say one thing.

I thank you for the friendship,
The friendship that I always need.

Your friendship is important,
I treasure it so much.

So please, oh please forgive me,
It's all I need and want.

Author's Note

I just hope he forgives me...

New information: He has forgiven me, but I still would like to share this poem with all of you. It has so much emotion, and I think people will enjoy it :)

Reviews

[DoormanDan]

CG, I have to say that this is easily your most emotional and most relatable piece yet. You say that it is not your best, but in a way, it actually is, just because of the raw emotion behind every single last word. Usually when there are poems this long, they lose my interest(AGH ADHD!), but just the emotions charging this poem kept me reading the entire thing! I don't know who it is that you're apologizing to, but just know that regardless of who you are, you're always going to do something wrong at some point in life. I know that those moments can make you feel like the worst person in the world, but they don't mean that you are. No, they just mean that you are HUMAN, and by acknowledging that you were wrong, you are proving just how good(and how strong) of a person you really are. For you to be so young and still be able to admit when you're at fault means that you are pretty mature for your age. This is a great poem, and I'm glad to hear that the person has accepted your apology. :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks! Yes, it is very long..lol
But I appreciate you reading it all! That means so much to me :)

[DoormanDan]

You are very welcome CG! :)

[yvo miki]

Wow it made me cry in a good way

[Cool Girl]

Aww thanks!! Love you :)

[yvo miki]

your welcome and I love u too bea

[The Flame of the Knight]

This is a good piece. It speaks to everyone at one point in time, and that's what makes us all human. Thanks for sharing!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much!!!

[foufa la perle]

Could I please use your poem to apologize to someone who really matter to me..? Cause I feel every word you used and every little feeling you've engaged through this poem.

Great job girl!

[Cool Girl]

Yes, you may! Thanks for asking :) and thanks so much for reviewing! :)

[foufa la perle]

Well, thank You! And.. you're welcome! :)

[Cool Girl]

You're welcome! Let me know if they forgive you :)

[foufa la perle]

I'm not sure that they'll forgive me, but you gave me so much hope! :)

[Cool Girl]

Well, I pray that they will :) I'm glad that my poem could help a bit!

[foufa la perle]

Yes, helps a lot. Thanks again! You're amazing.

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

A good piece of writing, Cool Girl. Raw emotions are the best to write down, right from the heart. Very well done. :) Rudi

[Cool Girl]

Thanks, Rudi! I appreciate it :)

[HopingStrong]

Very touching... Love has so many different forms, the love of a true friend is irreplaceable. There's always room for someone else and new relationships but those ones that have been there and you truly feel for will always take their own place. Great write I really enjoyed it!

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much!! :)

[Nini]

First, I am very happy he has forgiven you. Next, I like your usage of couplets mixed with larger stanzas. Good job!

[Cool Girl]

thanks, nini!

[Jeyanthi]

Hey! :) It is hovering too emotional, shows how much the person means to you.

And also nice to know that your apologies are valued. :P

[Cool Girl]

Thank you for the sweet comment!

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard to seek forgiveness. Sometime hard to forgive.
"I thank you for the friendship,
The friendship that I always need."
The above lines are good words. Open the door for opportunity of friendship again. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Cool Girl]

Thank you for kindly reviewing :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[RiverRei]

I've been there before. I'm sorry you had to go through this. I've only been in a few relationships but I've felt this with every one of them. They come back wanting more and it's so very hard. Do you give them another chance, or stick with friendship?

The emotion behind this is wonderful. I can feel exactly what you felt while writing this piece and that is always a wonderful part to reading poetry. I'm glad that he has forgiven you and things are okay again; I'm sorry that you ever had to feel this way. I'm here if you ever want to talk :) Thank you for sharing!!!

[Cool Girl]

I'm so glad that you enjoyed it! Yes, the emotions are very clear in this poem. Thank you for reviewing! It was a pleasure to share with all of you :)

[jonah]

i see you've been through some kind of pain, cool girl. this poem reflects your feelings clearly. it's raw, it's good. when it comes to things like this, we can't hide the need of forgiveness behind blurry curtains of hesitation. it's just flowing out with a rush. good to know that he has forgiven you, whoever he is. keep writing!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you, Jonah!! I appreciate it :)

[jonah]

yes, cool girl. you're welcome