Im Lost Without You

A song inspired by C. Lee Battaglia's "The Blonde Girl"

I don't know where to go
Now
And I don't know how to smile
Tears always seem to make their way
Down from my eyes
Don't tell me this is life

Shattered thoughts and shattered dreams
Memories awaken me
Heart and soul now turned to dust
Oh
Why did you take her away from us

I loved her
She could see beyond my eyes of fire
I needed her
We would talk for hours and hours and hours
I kissed her
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

My best friend
The only one who thought I wasn't weird
I missed her
But know I really know how that feels
She was mine
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

I can't tell red from blue
Now
In my life of black and white
She was the only thing
That could brighten up a dark cold day
But now she is gone

Ghostly face and hands of bone
Sadly both of these are mine
No more feelings or emotions
Oh
Why can't she just be alive

I loved her
She could see beyond my eyes of fire
I needed her
We would talk for hours and hours and hours
I kissed her
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

My best friend
The only one who thought I wasn't weird
I missed her
But know I really know how that feels
She was mine
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

I haven't prayed since the day
She went up into the clouds
I haven't said a word
To anyone in this crowd
It's not fair
Why'd she have to go so soon
I'm blaming you

I thought I saw her face
Yesterday
In the window of a house
Her blonde hair shining like the sun
On a summer night
Her expression so polite

I tried to mouth a word
But the word was left unheard
Pretty day turned into to rain
Oh
And her figure began to fade
No
So I silently screamed
Oh
As the car just drove away
No
Curse that car that drove away..

Author's Note

After reading C. Lee Battaglia's story called "The Blonde Girl," I just had to write a song. This one goes to anyone who has lost a loved one. I hope you enjoy :)

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This feels true & real-to-life for someone missing another, thru death. The expressions are not always neat & flowing, sometimes reading is a little jerky or thoughts jumping around, kinda like our minds do when under extreme stress. This feels unedited -- gut-level -- almost like the person is wailing the blues here, feelings coming out just the way they come out. I especially like the refrain starting with "My best friend" . . . such an endearing quality: "the only one who thought I wasn't weird" . . . I can feel how this narrator is feeling lost & alone, with nobody else in the world who "gets her/him" the way the best friend (now gone) did.

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much for this wonderful review! I truly appreciate it! :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

Oh my gosh! This is beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes.
It's a wonderful piece. I love the second to last stanza. That truly happens when you lose someone, you start to see them in places...
That's happened to me often..

Great piece Aless!!

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much, Nikki!!! lol
I really appreciate your kindness :)

[♥ Ari Skye ♥]

You're very welcome Sis!

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Tears in my eyes...
This is seriously the niceist thing that anyone has done for me in a long time... You touched my heart deeply I will always love her and I will always remember what she did for me... CG you are one of the most talented writer I know.
You are so generous and so kind...
I love this!!!
Your a great friend CG...
keep on being awesome because you are!

C. Lee Battaglia

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much, C. Lee!! I am so glad that you enjoyed my piece! You are an amazing friend as well, and you're great too :)

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Can I copy this and put it on my page saying you wrote this for me and say it's from you?

[Cool Girl]

Sure! Id be honored :)

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Thank's CG! Your a great friend... and also have you wrote any music with it?

[Cool Girl]

You're welcome! Honestly, there's a tune that goes with it..
But I took it from a different song lol
Writing to a tune really helps me for some reason..

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Same here... I posted it if you want to review your own work... xD

[Cool Girl]

Haha okay :)

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Make sure you let them read my story to ok? The Blonde Girl?

[Cool Girl]

Okay! I can send read requests for you if you'd like :)

[C. Lee Battaglia]

Okay... sounds awesome! thank you!

[Cool Girl]

You're welcome!!

[Rounak Jain]

This one I could relate to. got me emotional. :) Nice one. Would find out whats C. Lee Battaglia's story called "The Blonde Girl," That is in to my read list.

[Cool Girl]

I'm sorry that you can relate..
It's not something lots of people would want to relate to :(
Thank you for kindly reviewing!
Yes, C. Lee's story is absolutely beautiful :)

[Not here]

I can't tell red from blue
Now
In my life of black and white
She was the only thing
That could brighten up a dark cold day
But now she is gone

that was my favorite part of the poem. great job cool girl!

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much, David! I really appreciate your feedback :)

[foufa la perle]

This is a masterpiece! I would never imagine myself into this, cause I really love my friend, and I always have this fear of losing her and feeling just the way you talked through this poem.
And for a second, I really believed that you lost your friend and wrote this about her...

Great job! I congratulate you!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate your feedback :)

[Saddam]

Ghostly face and hands of bone
Sadly both of these are mine
No more feelings or emotions
Oh ! Why can't she just be alive

After reading it I feel my moist eyes.
Memories always blind be.
Great read dear.

[Cool Girl]

thank you so much
I always tear up when I reread this..

[Katelyn-Rose Conroy]

Wow, I could feel the narrator emotion. This is really beautiful depiction of grief and the feelings/stages behind it.

[Cool Girl]

Thank you, Katelyn! I'm so glad that the emotion of sadness was seen clearly in this poem :)

[luvs2write]

I love the bitterness (or was that just me?) in this song! I like writing lyrics too, but I think I've only posted one. I really like this though, it has so much emotion in it. Great work!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much!! Songs are really fun to write :)

[closed]

very emotional

I know its hard to watch someone close to you leave in any way

but know this
there is a power in your pen Aless

and with that you can immortalize those you love
forever

-Dream

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it :)

[AaronFreitas]

Very good work Cool Girl!!!! I enjoyed reading this piece from start to finish :)

[Cool Girl]

thank you, Aaron!!!! :)