Im Lost Without You

A song inspired by C. Lee Battaglia's "The Blonde Girl"

I don't know where to go
Now
And I don't know how to smile
Tears always seem to make their way
Down from my eyes
Don't tell me this is life

Shattered thoughts and shattered dreams
Memories awaken me
Heart and soul now turned to dust
Oh
Why did you take her away from us

I loved her
She could see beyond my eyes of fire
I needed her
We would talk for hours and hours and hours
I kissed her
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

My best friend
The only one who thought I wasn't weird
I missed her
But know I really know how that feels
She was mine
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

I can't tell red from blue
Now
In my life of black and white
She was the only thing
That could brighten up a dark cold day
But now she is gone

Ghostly face and hands of bone
Sadly both of these are mine
No more feelings or emotions
Oh
Why can't she just be alive

I loved her
She could see beyond my eyes of fire
I needed her
We would talk for hours and hours and hours
I kissed her
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

My best friend
The only one who thought I wasn't weird
I missed her
But know I really know how that feels
She was mine
But then she had to go
And I didn't know

I haven't prayed since the day
She went up into the clouds
I haven't said a word
To anyone in this crowd
It's not fair
Why'd she have to go so soon
I'm blaming you

I thought I saw her face
Yesterday
In the window of a house
Her blonde hair shining like the sun
On a summer night
Her expression so polite

I tried to mouth a word
But the word was left unheard
Pretty day turned into to rain
Oh
And her figure began to fade
No
So I silently screamed
Oh
As the car just drove away
No
Curse that car that drove away..

Author's Note

After reading C. Lee Battaglia's story called "The Blonde Girl," I just had to write a song. This one goes to anyone who has lost a loved one. I hope you enjoy :)

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This feels true & real-to-life for someone missing another, thru death. The expressions are not always neat & flowing, sometimes reading is a little jerky or thoughts jumping around, kinda like our minds do when under extreme stress. This feels unedited -- gut-level -- almost like the person is wailing the blues here, feelings coming out just the way they come out. I especially like the refrain starting with "My best friend" . . . such an endearing quality: "the only one who thought I wasn't weird" . . . I can feel how this narrator is feeling lost & alone, with nobody else in the world who "gets her/him" the way the best friend (now gone) did.

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much for this wonderful review! I truly appreciate it! :)

[Pushkar Prabhat]

lovely song........sad but beautiful......
separations are difficult........
very beautiful writing............
i loved it!!!!
:)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much, Pushkar! I really appreciate it :)

[Pushkar Prabhat]

you are welcome!!! :) :)

[Elisa]

I was about to say this seems like a song to me, and a lovely one at that. You've run the gambit of emotions here. I like that the imagery you use has a purpose, and you didn't just add it because that's what poets are "supposed" to do. I could really see someone putting these words to music. A great tribute to a lost loved one.

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much, Elisa! I don't normally follow the rules of poetry, I just write and make up my own rules! I am actually trying to write the music for it on my piano. Thanks again! :)

[Rick Puetter]

This is really nice, Cool Girl. Wonderful sentiments, and put down nicely in verse. Liked it a lot.

All my best, and high marks.

Rick

[Cool Girl]

Thank you, Rick! Have a nice day :)

[....................]

A beautiful sentiment to a friend. The last stanza leaves me yearning for those I have lost along the way. Thanks for sharing!

[Cool Girl]

Thank you!!

[Samhitha Mopati]

Wow! I could really feel those piercing words. You are one writer who can connect very easily to people! Kudos to you...:)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much!

[RomaJ]

When ever I start to miss a loved one, I take comfort in knowing that even in spirit, our loved ones can continue to provide all the support and love that they have brought throughout our time together in this life. Beautiful and truly heartfelt poem and song, Coolgirl.

[Cool Girl]

Yes, our loved ones are truly always with us.
Thanks, Roma!

[Natureislelove]

I think this was wonderful.
Quite heartfelt with the emotions, brings out the memories of losing that person you loved soo much.
Makes me think of my cousin i lost a few years ago and how much it hurts that she was taken so young. lovely piece & song

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much! I'm so sorry for your loss..

[Natureislelove]

Yea thanks, its ok :-)

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Very good, beautiful poem but also a very good text for a song, Cool Girl. :) Rudi

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much, Rudi!! I'm glad that you enjoyed it :)

[Confuser]

Cool Girl I love it: Can't cry again; the emotions did bring tears to my eyes. It is written so beautifully: I read his story earlier and it was beautiful too. You hit every dimly lit sad feeling, but then his love for her also; I also love the ending as you can see. Great writing.
I thought I saw her face
Yesterday
In the window of a house
Her blonde hair shining like the sun
On a summer night
Her expression so polite

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much, Dale!!! It was indeed an amazing story

[Confuser]

It is and so is your song: I am so glad he wrote about it. If someone; and my brother that died had many friends and best friends wrote about him I would be so happy. I can't do that now, even though yrs have passed. You are write amazing story!!!

[Cool Girl]

Thanks again! It's hard to write about really sad things or experiences..

[Confuser]

I wrote a story and took it down; it is sad; but someone thought it wasn't fiction/got confused/a writer said change it to 3rd person, and I will. Actually...you've inspired me!! Thank you so much. Dale

[Cool Girl]

You should put it back up! I'm glad that I inspired you, Dale! I really appreciate your kindness and friendship :)

[Confuser]

Thanks: We'll see sweet girl. Take care.

[Sindu]

This gnawed at my heart:

Don't tell me this is life

Shattered thoughts and shattered dreams
Memories awaken me
Heart and soul now turned to dust

Raw and emotional piece. I wish I do not have to relate to this any sooner. Great work CG. I felt this.

[Cool Girl]

Greetings! I really appreciate your kind words! Thanks so much :)