Flashback

This is about my death...sort of...

Waiting for the end of my life
So I can see it all before my eyes
All the things I have forgotten

Remember all the faces I've seen
And take al my memories with me
When I'm gone

I really don't want to be left
Without something to take with me
Into a better place
So I wait peacefully
With no doubt, instead with ease
Waiting for my flashback

When I'm old
And tired
And quiet
When I'm coming close to the end
And I'm lying in my nice warm bed
Just looking at the ceiling
With nothing left to be said

And it all comes rushing back
As I take my final breath
And I can almost taste Heaven

My friends,
Family,
And the lives they lived

My hopes
My dreams
And wishes

The love
Heartbreak
And all that's in between

The people that meant so much to me

The living and the dead
All the things inside my head
It will all come rushing back
When I have my flashback

I'm not saying that I want to wish my life away
It's just incase I get my memory taken one day
So that it will all come back to me

And it all comes rushing back
As I take my final breath
And I can almost taste Heaven

Author's Note

I hope you enjoyed it!

Reviews

[Perkele.7885]

I can appreciate her plan however, mine would be different. I would like to slip in a side wall or gate and walk around a bit and get a feel for the place, see who might not be there and wish them well. See friends and family a few at a time.

[Cool Girl]

That sounds nice! I like your plan :)

[closed]

very poignant my rose...

i see that you have always held death close to your thoughts...

but i remain ever by your side to banish the darkness...

and i will fight death to the bitter end
that he may never claim


-my Queen of dreams

[Cool Girl]

Yes...I do hold death close to my thought, but thank you. I appreciate all that you've done for me :)

[Jerome F Knox III pseud..]

flashbacks could be both good and bad and the one you speak of her is positive. October 23, 2014 I suffered a mild stroke and it affected my short term memory some. I thought I was not going to be able to do poetry because of the cognitive nature required to do so. My flashbacks balanced between the good, the bad and the extremely ugly. You are correct in having their fear as illustrated in your poem and profile. Live everyday like it is your last and cherish everything in between.

[Cool Girl]

Im very sorry to hear that..
You are right about living like it's your last day because you never know what will happen to you
Thanks again, Rico!! :)

[jonah]

hi, cool girl! a lovely piece you got here. I love reading piece like this one. it sounds contemplative and touching, some sort of reminder that this life we're living is beautiful yet fragile with all its limited understanding towards loss and suffering. I'm thinking this also has something to do with your fear of memory loss? but I'm not quite sure haha. nice poem. keep writing!

[Cool Girl]

Haha, it does indeed have something to do with my fear of memory loss! Thank you so much for your kind words and for taking the time to read and review:)

[jonah]

no problem, cool girl! I hope you don't mind if I keep calling you that. I don't know your real name :))

[Cool Girl]

You can call me Cool Girl, or C.G. , or Aless xD

[jonah]

Aless..right. okay xD

[Thayle L.]

where the mind may falter. the soul shall not.

[Cool Girl]

Very true... :)
Thanks for reviewing!

[Moonlight]

It is such a beautiful piece... Gosh! It gives that self satisfied vibe... I love it! Great work! :)

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much, Moonlight!

[Pushkar Prabhat]

intetesting!!!
very well thorough write!
i liked it!!!
:)

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so very much!

[Pushkar Prabhat]

you're welcome!!! :) :)

[Lenah Mehzabin]

Hell ! This just like made a ache inside me ..the thought og getting old and the beautifully keeping the memories so alive , Fantastic job ..loved the theme : )

[Cool Girl]

Thanks so much! I'm glad you liked it!

[Stephen]

Wow. That was very good. I don't know what it would be like to lose your mind. Would it be as if you are just dreaming and you do not know that you are dreaming, for it all seems as reality. Maybe if while you lost your mind, you was still remembering the things of the past. A comma, must just be a very long dream. It would be interesting to know if in the dream that is where you would walk into eternity. what would it be like to die in a comma. Sorry, you activated thought in my head. Now I am going to be thinking about his for the rest of the night. I appreciate your work, it was good.

[Cool Girl]

Haha, thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it!

[Lizardo]

I tend to think a lot about his: ''How my death is going to be?''
I'll figured out with time
A pretty sad and emotional write but it's really good

[Cool Girl]

Thank you so much! Yeah, I tend to think about it a lot also:)

[Thayle L.]

If you ask me, we just have another life. through metaphysical ways, you could send a spirit to tell your new life all about the old. you wouldn't be forgotten, because spirits have memory less fallible. sorry if I sound like a madman, it's part of the Thayle package. also, no user guide.

[Thayle L.]

if you think I'm kidding try this. http://www.llewellyn.com/journal/article/2213
It worked for me