I Lie

My mother asks me where does it hurt

But I don’t want to tell her where the pain truly resides

So I lie

I tell her my shoulder

I can’t tell her that pain’s inside

That when I breathe it feels like my insides are colliding

That I’m drowning in a sea of emotions

Emotions I am too young to have experienced

Endured

So again , I lie

I say that my shoulder hurts

She kisses it

But she she doesn’t know it doesn’t help the real pain

Yet I let her believe it to be alright

Because I cannot tell her I want to die