At 7 Years Old

 

 

At 7 Years Old

I was beaten till I shed blood

At 7 Years Old

I was beaten till I shed no tears

At 7 Years Old

I was told to pray to God

At 7 Years Old

I was beaten while praying to God

At 7 Years Old

I learned not to cry

At 7 Years Old

I learned to not give a s**t why

At 7 Years Old

I was beaten cold

At 7 Years Old

I learned to keep it all in

At 7 Years Old

I learned to cry from within

At 7 Years Old

I hated myself

At 7 Years Old

I wanted to kill myself

At 7 Years Old

I became numb

At 7 Years Old

I thought I was dumb

At 7 Years Old

I thought everything I did was wrong

 

Just trying to read I got beat

Just trying to pray I got beat

 

At 17 Years Old

I was wild

At 17 Years Old

I did not give a f**k

At 17 Years Old

All I did was f**k

At 17 Years Old

I didn't know right from wrong

At 17 Years Old

I didnt care right from wrong

At 17 Years Old

I became numb to pain

At 17 Years Old

I started to inflict pain

At 17 Years Old

I started it all again

At 17 Years Old

I needed to restrain

At 17 Years Old

I didn't know who to blame

At 17 Years Old

I was ashamed

At 17 Years Old

I thought I was a shame

At 17 Years Old

I tried to change

At 17 Years Old

I hated even my own name

 

But why is the pain still there?

Why isn't my life fair?

 

At 27 Years Old

I still feel the same

At 27 Years Old

I still carry the pain

At 27 Years Old

I'm trying to understand why

At 27 Years Old

I still wanted to die

At 27 Years Old

I'm wondering am I sane?

At 27 Years Old

Am I going insane?

At 27 Years Old

I found out that I did nothing wrong

At 27 Years Old

I didn't speak for so long

At 27 Years Old

I found out that it wasn't my fault

At 27 Years Old

I found out that it was "HE" who was insane

At 27 Years Old

I am making a stand

At 27 Years Old

I know I would be a better man

 

Than "HE" who laid a hand

on a poor 7 year old boy

Reviews

[Stacy A. Foster]

So true, and glad there's a follow-up with a realization in this. Adults can influence the young in many ways, and not all of them are good. Luckily some of us realize who the ones are who were really wrong. I like the repetition in this which helps get the point across (from child to adult). The sad thing is that this is probably true for thousands...

At 27 Years Old
I found out that it wasn't my fault
At 27 Years Old
I found out that it was "HE" who was insane
At 27 Years Old
I am making a stand
At 27 Years Old
I know I would be a better man

Cheers for this,
Stacy

[That_Girl]

I love how this ends positively... it's quite an amazing message for kids that are abused or have been in the past. Beautifully done.

[Crazy Cat Man]

yup this is my past. and I finally let it go. u wanted to read some of my dark poetry and this is one of them. But yeah my point is to embrace the dark side and the bad,,,,then let it go so it can allow us to understand the past and allow us to love others :)

[That_Girl]

I can relate and I love it. It takes a lot of time to let go of certain things and I'm glad you have. :)

[Crazy Cat Man]

hugs

[That_Girl]

Returned. :) As always.

[Luna]

This is amazing. It touched me in so many different ways.
I hate that you had to go through that; no one should have to endure something like that.
But, I am so glad that you realized that it is not your fault.
Also, I like the repetition and the flow.
Another great job.

-Luna

[Stephanie]

That is just so heartbreaking. I want to cry when I hear about kids being abused and you brought that out. I'm not crazy in love with the rhyme pattern, since they're a lot of the same words, but it really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. Emotional, raw write.

[rachel <3]

story of my life.

great write :)

[Voice]

Very deep I know and have felt similar pain. Nothing can completely heal and nothing can make amends all we can do is continue to fight and continue to live. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and to reach that light you can't ever give up especially on yourself my friend�

Voice

[Celtic Cat]

ouch, ouch, and more effing ouch. Perfect piece. It captures the cycle of the abused quite presicely, or should I say the cycle of those who are healing. Hard-hitting; nothing less than I'd expect from you!! Excellent write.

[Caitlin Nicole]

This is really good. Fantastic really. I think the repeatition really brought out more emotion. I love it. Great job.

[Heidi Hallucination]

hum it kind of sounds like my past. its very good thank you for entering in my contest

[Nicole E. Belle]

This is really sad. Love the ending - "I know I would be a better man, than 'He' who laid a hand" - that's very powerful. And the repetition with the age works really well.

[justjenn_2u]

This is sad to have to reflect back on. I hope you have strength in you. I have a seven year old and the thought of the abuse makes me sick inside.