Shattered your Heart like Glass...

I'm a dumbass. No explanation needed.

You promised me.
You hurt yourself.
And everytime that happens,
it's like a cut deeper and deeper
into my soul and strength.
I know you were crying.
I was too.

I love you.
With my everything,
And how could I say that
when I ended us?
Because if I didn't let you go
I'd be in excruciating pain.
I would hurt you so much,
just by loving another
person as well.

I will never forgive myself.
Day after day I slip just a little further....

waiting for the time...

when that blades kisses just a little too deep...

and I'll come back to this earth as a worm.
A filthy worm,
for all I have done
when I was only trying to help.

Until that blade,
into my bone scrapes,
I will stand here.
I will love you here.
And nothing can change that.

I've only admitted love to
you
and
him
and it all proves true.

So you hurt yourself, you hurt me,
we all f*****g hurt.
There's nowhere to f*****g turn.
Everything will fall to ashes and burn.
My stomach and ripped heart they churn.

When it thump thumps it thumps for you.
Yeah, it thumps for him too.
But he doesn't love me back like you do.
And nothing means more to me than you.

So put the knife down,
forget that f*****g frown,
so I've turned your world upside down,
and I can't turn it back.

Before I escape this hurt,
even if I come back as a worm,
I'm sure I'll never learn,
the way you cared for me.

So I'm sorry.
Forgive me baby.
Come back to me please,
but go away all the same.

My mind is wrong.
Me heart is right.
Here's this song,
to show my fight.

Yeah I'm a stupid a*s.
I shattered your heart like glass...
So here's my last.

I love you love.
I don't know how much longer
I'll put up with this s****y world,
but I can tell you it won't be long.

Perhaps we could drown in our own tears,
with sweat and blood trickling down.
We'd forget and release all our fears,
and slowly fall to the ground,
hand in hand.

They can break my bones
and bruise my soul,
but s**t, they're not taking me out
unless they get you too.

Author's Note

I let her go, when I should have kept her close :'(