Breaking Inside

I say I'm fine.
To myself, I lie.
But you're sitting there,
like nothing's wrong,
and I'm breaking inside.

It's not fair
that I have to be strong.
And you can break me,
and everything's wrong.
My heart is gone.

I smile to you,
but my chest is seering.
I hide behind my sunglasses,
my eyes tearing.
And I'm fearing I'll die.

Every time I am happy,
it's ripped from me.
You gave me grief,
but took my glee.
And I am dying.

I need to be with you,
to touch and to love.
To be safe and warm,
forever in your arms...
But you're walking away.

My one last chance,
it's slipped from my hands.
Into the past,
where my love is heading.
And I'm dead.

Only the love of you
can revive my heart.
But now I hate,
I'm falling to fate...
drowning.

I still laugh and smile,
showing you I'm strong.
But inside,
I'm breaking.
Everything is tearing,
and I'm dying.

I can't lie to myself anymore,
I can't lie to you.
I don't know what to do.
I can't stop trying,
because I love you.

How many times
will I have to lie?
To tell you I'm fine,
when I'm drowning inside?

How long can I hide?

Author's Note

True story, sunglasses and all.