Crying

i cant take this life...

Crying

 

Crying is good for you.

Sometimes you just need to let it out,

But right now is too much.

One bad thing about crying,

It brings back memories.

Of broken hearts,

Or people walking out.

 

I just can’t take it anymore.

 

Thoughts of the previous times

Rush through my mind,

My eyesight blurs as tears burst out.

My brother fighting with my parents,

Ending with him walking out.

Then my other brother following suit a couple years later.

No memories of my two parents together,

But imagining theirs fights.

Hearing the yelling in garage as my mom and step-dad go at it,

A door then slams,

And I don’t see him again.

 

These horrible things pollute my brain,

Creating my ultimate weakness:

Fighting.

 

It needs to end,

This type of crying doesn’t feel good to me,

I’m letting it out a little too much.

All I can do now is cry.