The worst mistake of my life.

The fact that I hurt you, Is what hurts me the most.

Biology.
April 12th, 2010.
2nd block.
Mr. Zematis' class.

It wasn't supposed to happen like that.
I sat in the back of the room with him, good intentions only.
I was planning on doing my work..

I sat down. I had my work in front of me. Eyes only on that protists packet.
He used that voice.
The one I couldn't say no to.
And for one moment, I lost control.
I'm sorry.

It all happened so fast.
I pulled away. That kiss meant nothing.
You mean EVERYTHING.

The guilt washed over me instantly. 
I broke down to tears on that bridge..
I couldn't keep the truth from you.
I just couldn't.

I told you, and the look of disbelief on your face was a shock of punishment to my heart.
You didn't want to believe it.
That I could hurt you like this.

You took me back.
With open arms you took me back into your heart.
You came up behind me at lunch, you wrapped your arms around me.
That was the best feeling in the world.

Darling, I have never regretted something so much in my life.
If only I could take this back. If only I could change the past.
I would change it in a second.
I would take everything back.

The only thing I can do now is prove this to you. I intend to do just that.
I will prove to you that I deserve you.
Even though I know I don't.

It's been weeks now.
I still cannot forgive myself.
I never will. I don't deserve forgiveness.
I deserve all the "cheating" jokes.
I deserve being called a w***e everyday in the hallways behind my back.

You are the one thing in my life that means the most to me.
The one thing that truly makes me happy.
I couldn't even refrain from messing that up.
I love you.
And even though that seems like bullshit after all I've put you through..I mean it.

I will prove this to you.
That I love you.
That I need you.
That I will do whatever it takes to prove myself to you.
That I will make this right.
That I will not take you forgranted.

I promise.

This was the worst mistake of my life.
I made it to the best gift in my life.
I am so sorry.

I will love you forever, and not a day less. No matter where this love of mine takes us.

Author's Note

Grammar sucks.

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grammar does not suck... I very much like this.