I am an exile. The faces, names and actions around me
are as foreign as the first taste of a new fruit.
But the trees here are damp with tepid water,
and the fruit is just as bland. I am wading in unspiced
oates. Wading in general feed. Vague moments
of people pushing themselves and their meanings
around in a haze of nonsense. Gossip-collumn people.
Nothings voicing themselves, birds with no sun
calling the dark of their inability to find passion
without the words for it. And I in a nest of these
nearly going mad. How I ache to be inside the warmth
of their company. Yet, I sit in the room and my big head
or my big mouth and I am a rare thing. I can clear a room
at the bat of a lash. Am I feared? Do I offend?
I am talking to the ebb and flow of short attention-spans
trying to get a real word in. But no one believes in words
or anything for over two minutes. Every night I feel lost and slowed.
Some thick shawl of soul over me, and like a flag
no one paves the roads where I go; I signal and perpetuate
what I find so dismaying: the vacuid smiles and tasteless-broth
gestures of their shallow soup. I am too passionate a thing
to be in the garden of damp matches. And above all this:
why aren't you around to plant my heavy lobes on?