Believe

Believe

I was an explorer, looking for love,
Searching for something, I didn’t understand,
A feeling of security, sanctity, to be desired and accepted,
When I turned around, there she stood.

She had shiny beads, sewn on her old jeans,
Soft lips, and a strong jaw,
Long dark hair dangling down to her waist.
A timeless sweet familiar grace surrounded her face.

She was raised in a small town near the Tennessee Mountains,
She is Southern wise and Southern free,
and the prettiest girl I’ve even seen,

When she rolled her bright blue eyes up to the sky,
And she laughed out loud,
I wanted to cry instead a only a mournful sigh,
I want to be deep inside her eyes,
To greet that feeling of happiness again.
Hold it tightly, and never say goodbye.

All around me,
I see and feel the unforeseen snow falling,
But all I do is gaze upon the long legged girl in front of me.
You should have seen her.
Did you see her?

On a sidewalk, in a small town, people are rushing here & fro
To be saved from the wetness of the snow and the icy cold winds blowing faster.
I found it funny, even strange, she doesn’t seem to notice them at all.
But she is staring directly at me, pulling me inside those ash eyes.
I don’t even know her name, but she is making me feel alive.

She just smiled and stood up, so tall,
Began to play her banjo, singing softly
A Cajun melody,
And I’m mesmerized.

Could this be the love, the haven, I’ve been searching for,
Or is this a mirage, a beautiful disguise?

She sang, in a whisper, soft and low.
Mister, do you believe in heaven and
can you show me which way to go?
I’ve been lost and longing,  
for a place in time,
When life was carefree,
No worries on my mind.

Mister, where have you been
Have you cast away your sins,
Do you have any faith at all
Will you be my friend?
The truth is just beyond the door,
And you will be forever free,
Do you have the special key?
When the time is right, you will see.

But at that moment I remembered,
 the granting of our wishes,
Like the true love we all desire,
Is not like a flowers bloom,
It does not stay with us,
It may burn like a blazing fire,
But will dissipate like the daylight,
And we may forget about the truth.

I began to remember her song about the key.
The door is unseen, hidden until
the key is presented.
It has been shaped by our history.
Even the most minute sway of our thoughts and choices
changes the chambers, like a safe.
Each is unique and when the watcher of our time, rings the bell
we can only hear,
Our key is ready and we will see the door and know,
Behind it lies the answer to everything we will ever need or desire.  

Some keys are shiny, like the beads on her jeans, twinkling,
from the streetlamps above.
But some are matted, worn and dull.

Her song is playing a changing melody.
She sings, Mister, look in the mirror and tell me what you see.

So I looked, but the reflection was in the mirror of my yesterdays.
Maybe all this is recognizable because I’ve opened that door before; maybe many times.
And the pains of my yesterdays,  
Reminded me of my youth.
And I feel that strange hollow empty feeling again,
But know I’ll be okay,
It’s as if she has always been with me.
I guess I’ve always been searching
For the right key, the melody,
For the one true love meant for me.

I hear the bells ringing and the door
magically appears,
but I know I must be courageous to enter and show no fear,
And in an instance I realize, to love, to truly love,
Is the scariest, most petrifying experience.  
That has been my quest.  
Just thinking of the loss of the ability to love is so inexplicably horrible.
But the door opens when we are ready, even if we don’t think we are
mature enough, lived and experienced a true gauge of sorrow and pain.

In a small amount of time, she has
picked me up like a phoenix out the ashes of my self-pity and pain.
I’m smiling, excited, grateful and hopeful as I insert the key and turn it.

There she stands in my doorway.
She begin to speak in that surly Cajun accent and said:
There’s a crack in the mountain,
And it is covered up with snow, but if I look
below it,
Great words of wisdom are written on the stones.

She said the words are forever changing.
Written exclusively for me,
an experience undertaken by many.  
And the words can be so sorrowful, people can go insane.
For the words tell a person who they really are.
It comes from the part of our spirit, our soul we hide,
Even from ourselves.

I trust her and she holds my hand and we walk toward
The mountain, through the icy gaps, footsteps behind us in the snow,
We reach the destination.
My hand lets go and I breath in the cold air and reach down.
The stone is feather light and easily finds my hand.

The words look scrambled, but then I clearly see
the ancient letters lining up for me.
Have faith.
A miracle is created when there is a righteous belief in anything at all.
You are the miracle.

And I knew,
It doesn’t have to be a religious belief,
It‘s simply love for everyone or someone, like her.
I believe, do you?

Author's Note

Poetic Prose -

Reviews

[M.A.Rathore]

First of all I would like to say that there is not such a word "poetric" in English so it should be "poetic" which you corrected in your comment. The second is that your poem is so long that it is not easy to maintain the connection to the whole story.
As for as the poetic attrubutes are concerned your poem is vividly exposed in the simple manner that is apt in story form. It is very good that you related this story in simple diction but the description is so lovely that the readers feel at easy in the process it goes down with the so beautiful girl living in carefree nature being overwhelmed in love and life not thinking even the rainy and snowy season outside.
I really enjoyed the beauty and story to my heart.
Thanks for sharing so great a post!

[Workvio]

From that very first moment of our very first breath an invisible hunger within us seeks after something we cannot touch, hold, nor taste ... Fulfillment ... When found we have reached our heaven even if it lies amongst the flames of darkest days now turned to brightest light ... We ignore the scorching heat in grasping fulfillment sweet ... My heart hopes your heart has found its desire amongst the flames that cannot be tamed ...

[Confuser]

Marvin, your reviews are better than my poetry "I want to steal it - amongst the flames that cannot be tamed. And don't concern yourself with my heart, REALLY, a nice thought, but over reaching. Truly, I'll tell my husband today how wonderful he is.

[Workvio]

Please don't misinterpret my concerns for your heart ... That was simply my way of saying that if your poem was written from real life and not simple muse or prompt, then I hope you are happy in your life, whether you speak of yourself, or of another. Times have changed, and I attempt to not judge all the changes ... My oldest daughter's spouse is a woman, and has been so for quite a few years since departing from her husband, who was a true jerk example of the worst in a man ... Nothing out of the way, nor improper was meant, nor meant to be implied ... You have no worries to worry about there ... Good day ...

[Confuser]

I can with all honesty say, this poem/whatever has nothing to do with me, personally. But I do write about myself. Guess it was meant to inspire hope; but it is certainly a true draft. Really, I just write quickly sometimes and don't even think about it. Slowing down, I can bring forth more imagery and description so whatever. Got to go!

[jennifer little]

long sweet i liked it you did a wonderful job keep up the good work

[willweb]

What an enchanting story you have presented here Confuser. I loved this from the start, through the wonderful journey I walked in your stanzas until I found brilliant sunshine waiting for me at the end. I sat here thinking I wish I would have found that stone and then it dawned on me, I just did in your beautiful writing. Outstanding!!!

[Justin]

that was really good :) :) it tells a great story :)

[R Smith]

Right, after 3 reads, first let me say this is going in my library because i think no matter how many times i read it i will always find something new, this is a modern epic miracle, a story/poem/philosophical treatise on life, love and some very deep mysteries, it needs to be explored like a scientist searching for answers to a philosopher searching for......answers, its beautiful and frustrating at the same time and may be one of the greatest poems ever written, I love it!

[Confuser]

Dear God in Heaven, Richard, I'm very thankful and at the same time, confused about what it even is. When I write something, I want to tear it up and do it over. I am thankful again. And your reviews are always better than what I can write!

[R Smith]

you should have more faith in your writing, i won't do fake reviews so be sure when i say i think its one of the best ever if not the best you can believe me and believe in yourself too :)

[emmajoy]

'.. And the words can be so sorrowful, people can go insane. -- -- For the words tell a person who they really are. -- -- It comes from the part of our spirit, our soul we hide, -- -- Even from ourselves.'

What a beautiful piece of writing.. truly. It travels so smoothly across the eyes and tells the most delightful tale.. of love seen, love found and the happiest ending with true and deep meaning - just what love should be. The finish is a mix of myth and faith.. but never mind which, the words make everything else in your long, long write part of growth, of moving on.. and on..

(Read a second time and, am wondering if this could be a short story but interspersed with prose poetry.. that said.. your format is great as it is.)

[Confuser]

Thank you so much for reading it! I read you are a country girl; and though my voice doesn't sound southern, I am a country girl too and love nature. Now, like you said, it could be this or that, and that is the question; is it anything now, or could it be. emmajoy, you gave me great guidance, and I so appreciate it. I can rhyme easily; could possibly go back & do that. Guess I just don't know enough about poetry - got a long way to go, if I go. You're so sweet. Gave me something to think about. Have a great day! Oh yea, just saw LONG, long write. Uuohh, but I know you didn't mean it that way. I just didn't realize.

[emmajoy]

Will get back to you asap... am in England and its early evening...

Meantime is a pleasure to read your words and will help any way i can.. tho by no means an expert. Bye for now.