Journal - July 7, 2009

     Holy f**k havent written for two days! Hahaha shame on me. Well alot of stuff happened i guess. People listed all my faults (there was A LOT) and people think im talking s**t about them or something. I dont know they didnt wanna talk much about it. Oh well thats life right? I might go get high with a friend tomarrow, I dont know, just wait and see , haha act without impulses! Who gives a f**k! Dont think people do about the things i do, hell why should they? They all end up yelling at me or being pissed at me, I just let them down in the end. F**k i told eman he was the better person, I think he still thinks i am, hopefully not. More talking to chicks , and i think i was flirting with them , i dont know eman said i was but i think hes only saying that to be an a*s haha but i dont know, am i the flirty type? Maybe. Who knows? I dont.  Was it to eman i said that? or someone else? i forget but i said

"Everything works out in life

Except my life

Acecpet My life"

     I dont think they got it though. (I spelled it wrong). Oh and found out that ruth loves eman ( for reals now) are they gonna go out again? I dont know, found out the hard way the last two times, Who knows if they do , if they will tell anyone. ahh I'm gonna be called an a*****e or some s**t for saying all of this. Hell I still think of ruth as a friend , still someone to talk to about my problems. And eman as a brother , someone who could understand me and not expect things from me and to not judge me and expect me to just give up in life ( tho sometimes it seems he does). Eventhough they problably dont think of me that way i do of them.  I need cash! Can someone out there lend me some? pretty please!!! with a cherry on top? puppy face? Alright whatever i gotta go its 12:16 AM here

        Peace,

         Nick A.

                                  P.S. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! hahaha

Reviews

[ruth]

do you still care anymore?
just a thought as i was reading your journal entry.