Passover

What happened today was. .well it was unbelieveable. . but first let me tell you what has been going on. For sometime now ive been wallowing in self pity. Just going through life just blaming myself for everything ive done. That i will never see those i love ever again. Puking, hating myself. But now ive gotten over it. I still wonder and think, But now well know i dont know.. . Im Just living the moment of today

Now on to the topic at hand. Well it was weird. My mother had made pasta today. It was so good! So delicious. But the weird part was, That we all sat together. One family , Talking and joking around. It was special. The bread was passed, Wine was shared, and everything seemed so peaceful. We talked bout many things, some good , some bad, Yet we laughed and smiled. Something i never thought we could do as a family. I hope it will happen again sometime.

Later something else weird had happened. My father and I talked. For the first time it seemed. A real talk! He came in and laid on my bed, and started telling me to be careful at school. He told me that this is my last chance. That no matter what happens , he will always love me. God so much i wanted to cry and hug him. It was. .well different. He fell asleep after a while. I just sat there. He really loves me. . he really does.