A reason for suicide

one i wrote a long time ago. . .

Nick stood on the tallest building of this putrid city that some people call home. As he looked on to the land he was forced to recall all his sins by the hand of god. Or maybe his mind believing the myth of god. Like when he was six and was a bit curious, peeked under a womens dress and was wondering bout what he saw(Which most of us would call a camel toe) decided to poke it with a stick. At that moment he learned why men were scared of women. The rest of his life he found nothing but pain and misery. Although he had some joyous occcasions with friends( Even though they caused him pain also brought sucide to his attention). Nick had no relationships of anykind mostly because he never had a need for it, his friends always talked bout sex. He still had a physical need for it( as all people do) but his mind did not care for it.

What confused us most about nick was that it seemed as though he learned all of life's troubles at a young age, as if he experienced horrible actions and decisions. Throughout his seventeen year life span, his metal state began to act on this information. It made nick believe that this world was filled with vampires, people filled naturally with darkness and lived this life for the money, and that he would eventually become one to( reason for sucide). Also that someone needed to change it( Reason against it). 

He has just reached High schooland is begining to lose all importance in life. All of Nick's life he believed he had a purpose but then it was all lost in the darkness of the world, That had seeped into his head and clouded his judgement. It was happening for a while, being ridiculed everyday for someone else's enjoyment. He wanted to stop it, The pain building up inside, he was scared. All his life he had just ignored the comments, but why now was it disturbing him so? Nick felt as if it was lucifer himself was tormenting. He couldnt go to sleep at night. Haunted by demons.

Nick held this pain in for so long. Then on May 17, 2009 at 2:40 A.M. Nick decided to walk around town reliving his past memories. Good and bad. Till he found himself in the park. Nick walked into the bathroom, There he quietly prayed to any higher being, to protect his loved ones, his friends, and all who loved him.