sleep

I am so tired. So very tired. Yet i do not want to close my eyes. I dont want to travel to my world. where i see my loved ones die. Everyone is asleep. Everyone i know is asleep. Dreaming of wonderful dreams or nightmares. Here i am. Watching from under. I feel so terrible. I cannot help them. They have helped me through so much, But i have no power to help them. I sit , dazed, staring at my hands. I cant help anyone. These hands only bring pain. God. .why have you created me? Nothing to do. .just sitting here in the dark.  .surrounded by demons and dark shadows that dance with the moonlight. No one is here. I am alone.

I wanna help them. but i cant . . god im so weak

Reviews

[ruth]

wow nick.... in ur world where u see ur loved ones die... must be scary. dont feel alone. there are those around you that love you, and u love them as well. be strong, because if you are weak, they will continue to attack you. if you show strenght, they might attack but they wont be able to break your shield=) i love u! and smile!