I used to walk in the dark

I used to walk in the dark

Along the shore of a pond

Searching around that park

For a soul to share a bond.

But I only caught the sight

Of my reflection on a shimmer,

A shadow in the moonlight

While my fire fell dimmer.

The winter water my tomb

To extinguish my lonely life,

Done searching for whom

Would lovingly be my wife.

I never sought her there,

I only sought to drown,

Because I belong nowhere

And I let myself down.

Frigid water is a cold attack

Shocking my lungs to freeze

I'd be unable to swim back

Thus killing myself with ease.

Why was I born as such

With endless love to cede

That I’m always their crutch

Until I am no longer a need?

They say I'm great at work

And they're glad they hired

But wherein lies the perk

When all I feel is tired?

Goodness in it's own right

Was always good for me

But with no hope in sight

I only hope to be free.

I found freedom in my mind

And in poetry like this

For I know I’ll never find

The Thisbe to my Pyramus.

I'll push forward every day

Til I break or go insane

So at my funeral they'll say

At least he never lived in vain.