Razor in Hand (Poem about cutting)

another poem I wrote when I had the urge to cut. Writing usually helps me overcome those urges. ^_^

Razor in hand, a good kind of cold,

As urges to cut, slowly take hold.

Deeper and deeper 'til the blood pours out,

Not yell nor a whisper, not a scream nor shout.

In the midst of apathy, a slight pressure is released.

As the pain barely feeds this blood thirsty beast.

A Taste of Ecstasy, as the blade hits the ground,

all of my thoughts, stop running around.

The silence creeps upon the eerie dark..

as if nothing exists but a new burning mark.

When time slowly lets the fresh wound seal,

it leaves the hole in my heart.. Refusing to heal.

Author's Note

Written on: September 21, 2012.

Reviews

[NANCY MCCORMACK]

Writing about these things is a good way to spread awareness, good for you ,not an easy subject to be open about, not everything in life is easy. A good write.
Sometimes people do not understand how anyone can do this to themselves
unless they have been there themselves.

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

It really isn't easy to be open about. And You are absolutely right; People will never understand it unless they've been down that road.. And even then.. Not everyone could possibly understand.

[Inda]

Very raw and honest. Thank you for posting this, I'm sure it's not easy to do so.

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

It gets easier with time. At first, It was all "hush hush.. Leave me alone" Now it's. I want to help people over come the same addiction that I went through.
The scars will always be there as a reminder of what I've accomplished.

[Inda]

Glad to hear that, keep it up! :)

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

Thanks (:

[creativequill]

I used to have struggles wth cutting as well and used my writing to ease the urges, your writing is good, srong, glad you're using positive outlets, kudos

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

Thank you. ^_^ I just hope that people who do still cut, can see that there are ways to avoid it.. and Maybe this will help them in some way or another. C:

[creativequill]

I agree it takes a long time to overcome but it's possible and there are plenty more ways that are much healthier for sure to release those emotions.

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

Indeed. I turned to poetry, and writing in general. On occasions, I even draw.
March 27th this year will make 2 years since I last cut. C: I'm very proud of myself. I used to be an addict to it.. Had been doing it for 6 years. :/

[creativequill]

I did for six years as well, I'm going on my third without, writing and drawing really helps me as well, also the rubber band is always a solid fall back, glad you've overcome the addiction.

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

I'm glad you have as well. C:
It's not worth it. In my opinion.

[creativequill]

Absolutely not, now that I got past it I'm like what the hell was I doing all that time?

[Kiwi Panda Vixen]

Exactly. Lol. I look back on it and it's just like.. How could I have done that? Was I really that stupid? Haha.