As Alway, As Ever

I have looked for you in every lover I have ever taken
and I find myself
crushed
beyond all reason
when they are not
you

In the secret place
between what is thought
and said
I am
haunted
by the ghost of you

Not
the version
I possessed
But the soul
I knew 
You could become

Even now
you are
not the you
for which
I have
been longing

Oh
how I wish
that you were
Oh
that I could
will it

Please
I have
I can't
I will
bend your will
I won't

Yet
this is
my burden to bear
to know and love
the unknown
of that which is yet to come

And so
I continue
looking forward
in your absence
ever seeking
as always, as ever

Reviews

[Lorry]

This is beautifully written, full of longing and the feeling of something let go too soon, which is the image I got in my head, of a face of a little girl in the moment she knows she let go of her balloon. I think we are all a little guilty of measuring others against what we once had. Great write.

[Comewhatevermay]

More like longing for what she has never had, but that you so much for the review.

[Lorry]

You're welcome :)