Day of the Dead / Night of the Devil

a Halloween experience

 

 

I f**k everything up / the pie
no brown sugar / for my brown sugar
no crust / wrong shell
hell
More time cleaning up / than clearing up
the energy
that pulled him here / that pushes him away

I want to impress / to decompress
to touch soft / love mellow
yellow / everywhere / to symbolize

Happiness

What is it?
No one ever knows 'til it's too late / so I wait
to no avail / jail / feels like what I'm in
because I did find out / what "it" is
but, I can't obtain it / fully

Slivers of my piece of the pie
not even satisfactory
though I try

I'm a ghost in this land of the unknowing
Even when I blurt it out / paint it / create it
demonstrate it
I'm unheard / unseen / nothing but awkwardness
showing

It would be easier if I could think
walk / talk
dream of a future / like them
but, I can't.

I'm spilled over / peeled off / sliced
chewed up / spit out
discarded like trash / recycled
too many times

I watch lesbians build families / scouts build fires
burn what's meant to stay semi-whole
signs everywhere looking for new hires

I'm strong as titanium / as weak as these old, falling leaves
No one knows what to do with me / And,
I don't know how to sit still / I'm not addicted to a pill
or alcohol / or, otherwise

It's the simple things that give me thrills

Perhaps I'm meant to remain alone in this life?
Feeding squirrels peanuts / walking an incognito cat on a leash
Because, I don't think I'm designed to merge
with these humans

completely.

Reviews

[RainQueen]

"I'm a ghost in this land of the unknowing"

This piece...shining darkness, resigned pain.

The jigsaw piece with the unusual, jagged edges. Glittering and hard as diamond, so impossible to imagine a perfect fit...

And for that jigsaw piece, off-the-rack, almost good enough - Isn't good enough.
It never will be, and it shouldn't be.

Filing down those sharp, lovely edges so that one can fit with the thousands of smooth cobblestones - Unthinkable, obscene.

Better to be alone and still with you.

Amazing, perfect write. Thank you.

[Colette]

Wow! I'm just seeing everyone's comments now...thank you all! Ev...lol RainQueen..i bow in appreciation. Chasity...luv u

[DUALFISH320]

i love this poem cg

[Everett DeValle]

I Love you...Please, marry me. ;)