You Knew

I’m vintage vertigo
I’m gonna dip if you get too loud, angry, dramatic
Cause you served me a plate with more than a fill and I’ve had it
I’ve never been useful
I’ve always been ‘only a kid’
I’ve always been the forgotten
Always been ‘the little s**t’

Is it my job to wear a flower smile at the funeral?
You were there and ruined the atmosphere
If there was any to be had
You hurt me
You know you’re cruel and bad

My heart is so tired
My heels need some rest
You were the devil in my childhood room
You knew I didn’t like it

Reviews

[Aura]

It seems as if this poetry concerns the narrator and a horrible experience they had with a relative from when they were a child. This poem seems to be hinting at abuse, sexual? or verbal abuse? I picked up on abuse specifically because when a child is abused, they feel powerless and the tormentor gets away with it because the victim is "only a kid" and because I believe it is a relative, the child or victim is always supposed to pretend to be happy and pretend nothings wrong because they always see this relative. But deep down inside, they hate this person.

Its clear from this poem, that there is a funeral happening. This relative was there, had to be there perhaps, which the narrator hates. Who died? could it be someone who could've helped the victim from this abusive situation? A parent perhaps?

The narrator is a girl, we know because the persons heels need a rest. If this is an abusive situation, and it is a girl narrating this poem, and the relative was the "devil in the room"... Is the father the devil, the abuser? an uncle? who else can have unlimited access to a girls room?

Vertigo Cat, your poem definitely made me think and guess, thats great! Do tell me if I was on the right track though! Thanks for sharing, I enjoyed the read and taking the time to interpret this one!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for such a detailed, wonderful review! I was happy with how close you got in your review, it makes me happy you took so much time to read and think. It’s much appreciated thank you!

[Aura]

My pleasure!

[Betty Hermelee]

I get the feeling that this might be a relationship between father and daughter, especially the line:
" you were the devil in my childhood room".... in his eyes you can never do right, only criticism, never useful, "always been a little s**t"... and now your heart is tired.... of being abused and you're either speaking to yourself (cathartic) or thinking of how awful your life has been.... you must pretend in his presence.... and smile a lot. I love the tone of this poem, powerful and hits home to many of us.
Best, B

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much. I appreciate the time you took to read and review, it’s so appreciated. (:

[Kim S.]

My heart is so tired
My heels need some rest
You were the devil in my childhood room
You knew I didn’t like it

enjoyed these lines here, full of feelings. nicely expressed

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I appreciate your review endlessy (: