Nothing

‘Now I know what it feels like, to wanna go outside.’ Phoebe Bridgers

4/15/2022 3:09 AM

Those moments
Between life and death
Too sad to live
And too self centered to end it.

I wish I could be afraid again.

Author's Note

I’m back. For now. 👻 hope everyone’s doing good.

Reviews

[Shannon]

Nobody finds themselves until they look into the abyss, and only the dead die with no scars… they were never alive in the first place. Life is a fist fight… you just have to keep dropping bombs.

That review of my piece, “Separation Anxiety,” was beautiful btw.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

I really, really loved this review. Reviewing your work was a pleasure, thank you so much.

[Betty Hermelee]

This is where love of self comes in...in between thinking of life vs. death (suicide)...too scared to do anything rash because of self love...or the fear pops in.. sadness too; this is so difficult to wrestle with....at least for me.
great topic for discussion!
Best, B

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much for the review. It was spot on and I appreciate it endlessly.

[Betty Hermelee]

You’re very welcome!
Best, B.

[Robert Haigh]

I guess if we can still be afraid it shows we still care, and still think that we have something worth protecting and keeping, whereas, if we are past caring, then life has become almost meaningless to us. A thought-provoking write!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much. (:

[Aura]

This is interesting. Never thought that someone would want to ever feel afraid but I guess that's when happens when you contemplate life and death, feeling nothing within. It's particularly interesting when you wrote "too self centered to end it", I never thought about it like that, that people would be selfish to not end their life... very interesting write!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for the kind review. (:

[Aura]

You are welcome!

[Lisasview]

Once a long time ago when I was about 10 years old and watching a movie with my mother...I believe i was African Queen.
I was very upset because the man on the boat was dying he had no more drugs (drug addict) and was going to commit suicide... I was so upset and I talked to my mother about it. Her response was "he is going to die either way." Not sure why your little poem brought back that memory... Then, she said...and perhaps this was later and, I was a bit older.. that committing suicide was a cowards way out... Strong words..which were so wise..
Enjoyed your poem,
Lisa, now 7:20am in Spain

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for the kind review

[Lisasview]

Glad you saw my review...
You are most welcome...
Lisa, early in Spain

[jacob erin-cilberto]

Oh my goodness, this is powerful.

that in between state of mind and heart....
I was there once, understood it...at least looking back, I think perhaps
I understood something....but sure felt a lot...maybe sometimes I wish I could be afraid again, as well.
j.

[John the Baptist]

This one has the sound of depression. Depressed people may not want to die, but they end it because they can't stand the pain anymore. The speaker here drew back from the abyss before it was too late. Call it self centered if you like, but to me it's simply choosing life.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much- I don’t think it’s self centered all, actually. Just touching on personal emotions and such. Choosing to live is the strongest thing a person can do. Thank you again. (: