Spring Cleaning

Year's are getting shorter, the lines on your face are getting longer’- Andrew Garfield

I didn’t realize spring would be here so soon
It’s been forever since I left my room
And even longer since I’ve cleaned my tomb
The gold weeds are in pathetic bloom
And the wind is cold and comforting
Who am I to blame them?
For struggling

I’ll need fertilizer
And the sun
I’ll need that wonderful medicine
And then I’ll be able to run

I’m not me anymore
If I’m not me anymore
What was the door for?

Am I a pawn in your game?
Useless, but a leader
Recycle the harsh clench
Of rotted cedar

Cigarettes and lighters slaughtered with paint

Take your fermented baggage out like garbage before the sun goes down
Those spry buzzing fireflies are coming to town

Borderline in the corridor
Order that disorder

Every now and then
When there’s nothing going on
I can feel myself falling
Maybe it’s just a reminder that I’m stalling

I’ve been waiting for months for my mind to slow down
Tried everything
Cleared out my whole room
Let the sunlight be the big spoon
Tried to stay up all night and chart the moon
And when I’m seeing double
That’s when I know I’m in trouble

Everything is closing in
Is the end?
And did I even win?

Everything is different now
Evermore lost on the doorknobs tour
To perfect places swamps, bays and offices and whatever the hell more

I’m about to break and bend
Then burnout
I’ll ruin absolutely everything and do it all again
It’s coming to a head
Late at night when I’m burning out in bed

Author's Note

Sorry, another longer one. This was originally two different poems, but I couldn’t decide which to post, and it’s the same subject matter. Thank you so much for reading. (:

Reviews

[Betty Hermelee]

When you're mind's in a tizzy, it seems to me, nothing gets done! Trying to multi-task is dangerous and it seems to have affected you in a harsh way. Slowing your mind is many things, deep breathing, stretching, hot soaks, massage. I like your imagery to describe how things are closing in on you. it happens to many of us. It seems like everything is coming to an end, especially at darkness. Life is a fast pace, but sometimes our minds can't keep up with it and we think we're going down slowly. Beautiful, but sad write.
Best, B

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much for such a kind in depth review. I truly do appreciate it. (:

[Betty Hermelee]

You're quite welcome!!!

[M. J. Smith]

Funny how people get under your skin. And once there, they seem to stay forever, haunting like unwanted spectors. It can be the most toxic relationship ever. But we crave it, like an addict needing a fix.
You capture the futility of it all do well. One might even imagine this as a poem about addiction. Vaguely reminds me of an eighties song called You Soldiers by Martika.
Well, there's my odd way of looking at life surfacing again. Great poem. Loved it.

[M. J. Smith]

Corrections to my review: It should read Toy Soldiers. Apologies.

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

This is poetry at its best! The imagery was spot on! Penned perfectly!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

when the mind speeds up but all that is around us seems bogged down...
the burning out begins...no difference between the office and a swamp...between love and a bog...
we are swimming in quicksand, but slowly dying inside.
nicely done...imagery is quite visual.
j.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for the review. I loved it, thank you again. (:

[KAREN]

Excellent write! And the length doesn't matter!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much!

[KAREN]

You're welcome!

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

Never apologise for a long poem
Most of mine have been long
Loved yours !!
Great write ✍️

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I appreciate the kindness and your review so much.

[Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)]

Yeh never apologise for work we do x