The End

‘There’s no place like my room’- Phoebe Bridgers

You drove us home
Bought hot chocolate and kept us warm
It’ll be the most surreal Christmas morning
The sky’s as worn out as a kids favorite book
Every young word
Every brilliant idea reflecting in the brook
Back then it was so easy
But do these pages still need me?

We remain
In the deepest corner of the diner
The night sky and digital stars are spinning
And you’re still whistling
Every trumpet ever played
Is what it feels like being on stage

And the cacti has all been struck
And the town is talking about the dark clouds
They’ll know about the world alone
But they’ll never come in as long as I’m around

It’s storming and the top is down
We got lost in California acting like clowns
It’s all gonna be okay
Is what the twinkling red moon says
A volcano full of dust
Forgiving clovers and a lane
Coffee and a bitter taste
Life feels so much cleaner
I wish I could relive those few golden days
There something’s scary about how you won’t come around

There was something about 2021
A restart of all the fun

Watching that glass break
It still really really hurts
It reminded me of the me before I met you
Falling forever
But I think it’s finally coming together
Every lyric
Every chorus is melting
And I’m on the mend
I’ll dethrone that damn king
I’ll be the best usurper anyone has ever seen

I want the credits
I want the points
Or I’ll blow this joint
Bubbles reflect California night
God, it was beautiful
I wanted to see the Christmas lights with you
I just think there’s something about you
Something hidden in you
That’s adorable!
They think a mangy homeless cat standing up for itself was treason, think it was horrible

And now my ribs are broke
The truth to make you choke
You’re sorta stupidly self aware
The day you left the day I learned you didn’t care
I wish I could remember this feeling forever
So I wouldn’t have another break down f*****g ever
It’s 11:11, make a wish
Another bag of tricks

I was living in the nightmare realm
The only one at the helm
And I think I’m losing my touch
After that sweet rush

This isn’t where the garden ends
We’ll meet again
make amends
And I don’t know if it’ll chime true
But I’m here with you

The world is about to be torn up
Good thing we have a backup

I wish the dawn would stay purple
For f*****g ever
So I wouldn’t have to have another damn breakdown ever
From the ashes of a rebellions ending
Realities are blending
And I’m the ruler, lord, king and queen
I’m sending the message out to the other lands
I’ve taken my dreams hand
While we watch the flames all choke in sand

I’m not your loyal subject anymore
I’m the vertigo you’ll feel forevermore

Author's Note

2022, you’ll get to see all of my poetry, bare bones. There’s stories to be told.

Reviews

[Rick Puetter]

A very open and powerful poem. Greatly enjoyed the raw emotion. And I like your style. Unlike other free-style poets on this site, you get the point that a poetry line should be a full thought and not just chopped up because the line is getting long. So the flow of your words feels natural. And you are succinct in your words, we naurally lead to short line and powerful writing. The is no waste in your lines. And your break between stanzas is also natural and unforced. You know how to write in free verse, and make a powerful delivery.

All my best,

Rick

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you, so so much. This poem means so much to me. When people enjoy the way I set it up and the flow, it’s an incredible feeling, like I’m the writer always wanted to be, lol . Thank you for leaving such a kind review and reading such a long poem. Endlessly appreciated (:

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

This blew me away !
I love it love the style freestyle and I love it
Sorry not good at reviewing but Love ❤️ it
Fave verse starts with the purple dawn line

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Your review is perfect! Thank you so, so much for the review, I can feel the love in your words. Thank you again (:

[Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)]

You are most welcome I just added my fave verse into the review

[Nima.Hope]

I was born in a city with exactly the same kind of weather that California has and you made old memories of mine reviewed with your great description. "We remain In the deepest corner of the diner" I liked this part very much.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much! Your review is appreciated endlessly.

[Nima.Hope]

You're welcome Cat!

[Patricia]

wonderful pouring here! This has guts and is raw and flows very well. yes, I love it, I used to write much like this once, it's cathartic and makes for great poetry! This is really good, keep writing!!!!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it endlessly.

[Patricia]

You're welcome :)

[Ranger Kessel]

Past present future. I felt its all. I liked this poem. Nice write

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much.

[lightsong]

Such power my friend! your whole life is there, the youth, the past, the now the future, all of You is there, the angry, the strong, the raging, the faithful, the powerful! You brought everything to the table with a true amazing talent and a pure personal touch, that even the reader won't care about reading the word "f***" because it was used perfectly, and normally in long poems the reader might lose the focus or the the interest, but You hold us until the last line. it's not the end, it's the rebirth! Superior work my friend 💓

[Vertigo Cat1111]

I apologize for the tardiness, but I appreciate your review so, so much. More than I can say!

[Richard Knox]

This is a wonderful, powerful poem. The word choice, the imagery, and the intense emotions expressed surpass just words on the screen and leave me aching!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much!

[Silmara McGarry]

Endlessly amazing each word written with such power and strong feelings ( I want the credits
I want the points Or I’ll blow this joint)(I think this part is great ;-)) Not just that but the entire poem is absolutely woooooow!!! And I really could relate to it as well!!!

I hope all is great with you dear :-)))

A big Well done from me!!!!
Hugsss
Sil

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Wow, thank you so, so much for your kindness, this is such an amazing review. I appreciate the kindness endlessly. (:

[knighngale]

good morning Vertigo Cat, It feels as if you spoke of two. A father. Then a boy you liked. I like the 11:11. Very dynamic. Both time and chapter. You are clever, love that! :f ---KnighnGale.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much for the kind review. I appreciate it so much.

[duff]

"Do these pages still need me".

That line is stunning to me. Jealous of that line. Beautiful.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so so much! I know what it’s like to be jealous of a line, lol haha. Thank you so much for the review. (:

[angel frankie]

I don’t know what to say! The words you use leave me breathless. I never know what’s going to happen next. Magnificent. Powerful. Intelligent. Deep where it captures my soul and my shade. Everything is … beautiful and torn.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much! Your review is so kind, I appreciate it so much (:.