Prickly Days

I'll keep the upper hand as much as I could stand, so I'll never worry about falling too hard, letting you break my heart. That's not how it's gonna go so, I'll break my own- Taylor Bickett

I roll over in my sleep, subconsciously

Because I'm so used to doing it to everyone in my life

Always a fight

And when someone brings you up

I get so mad

Cause I love you so bad

But healthy love isn't something I've had

I don't know how

Not to self sabotage

You do something you, something cute

And I turn into a monster, unsheathing my claws

Baby, I just don't wanna be scarred, again

But you're smiling at me like that and then

I know I'm a fool

A self sabotaging tool

For you

It's like my head says

One day it's not gonna matter 

So make it not matter sooner

I miss what we had 

Last month I was 

So, so, so

Glad to be me

Happy just to finally be free

Now I'm spiking

A hedgehog

Hopping away like a frog

But my nature is that of a dog

Loyal to you to the end

But I don't treat anyone I love like a friend

So, stay back today, I'm prickly

Tired of always feeling so sickly

I'm sorry when you reach your magenta heart out

My thorns stick out

I tell everyone you're no big deal

But it's because I'm scared and this is so much to feel

For once it's real 

I'll have my prickly days

And I'm sorry

I'll be better when I wake up in the morning

And I'll always fit you in my story

Author's Note

Hello! I hope you enjoyed! I still have tons of work to put out but I've been busy with my current novel. (: If you like fantasies, imps and such, travelling, unexpected romances, you may enjoy it! Sorry I haven't been to active either, I'll be reading and reviewing soon! Have a wonderful day. Also, question of the poem, a porcupine is a rodent- what's your favorite rodent or are you the type to hate them? I personally think mice are cute!

Reviews

[Titilayo Sarah Eguridu]

I felt the entire push and pull,
Sometimes relationships are a ball and chain,
Sometimes it’s sweet, sometimes sour.
You captured the entire yin and yang of being in a relationship.
It’s never a smooth ride.
The tone,tempo,the hesitation and flippant words...ushered me into the scene.
Colacat,you write great stuff.

[Fran Marie]

those prickly days come and go and the mood
swings shift in all directions ..i feel strong mixed
emotions within the lines and and more than a
touch of denial of the love one who yet will
always fit in your story..nice ending..great write

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I’m so glad you liked it and thank you for reading and reviewing! (:

[Fran Marie]

you re so vey welcome

[barleygirl]

I love this entire poem, but especially the last 4 verses. It's like you start out describing the drudge more or less literally, but as your poem goes on, your imaginative streak kicks in & your metaphors get more head-turning. Great title, too. Fits the message well (((HUGS)))

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you! Ah, I missed seeing you on this site! I hope your doing well and thank you again!

[LostSage]

yea stay close with me.... we write these poems and they come from deep inside. nice nice to hear from you

[barleygirl]

Thank you for inquiring . . . this was the best summer since I moved here 10 years ago. Not too hot, just right, so relaxing, no wildfires, loving life. My garden went nuts becuz it wasn't fighting the extreme heat all summer! *smile* Hope you're doing well, too! (((HUGS)))

[Betty Hermelee]

A very deep poem indeed, much going on... self hate is almost to the point of being dangerous;; sleep could be be an escape from having to deal with you inner turmoil; you seem to crave love, but at the same time you could be your own monster. If only you could escape this ; to me, I know a family member who has Bi-Polar disease and has "prickly days" that can last weeks, and then she's free from these demons....or some of this prickly behavior could also be nightmares, but it occurs the daytime as well.... This is very complex and so thought provoking. WOW!
Best, B

[Vertigo Cat1111]

You explained it so perfectly! Thank you so much for really reading into the words and reviewing. Thank you!

[Betty Hermelee]

You're so welcome!!!

[LostSage]

Oh wow! You are something else. I have gone this far in life and never stopped once to ask myself what is my favorite rodent. There is nothing like you. I looked up otters cause they have fun. But nope they are not rodents. Otters are mustelids. What's your favorite mustelid? haha If anybody asks me what my favorite mustelid is I have a quick answer. Raccoons? Nope! Raccoons are procyonids. My favorite procyonid is a raccoon. OK my brain is wore out. I'll take a mouse. haha Have great day. Jeff

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Hmm... I like badgers and wolverines! Haha! Thank you so much for the kind review. (:

[LostSage]

I adore that line.... "I get so mad cause I love you so bad" That should be a song! Add in a few guitar chords and you have a song! Have a sweet day. Jeff

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you! Whenever I write my poetry, I always have a beat in mind. Now if only I could sing and play guitar!

[Carlos Lorenzo Estrada]

The bad kind of love is so hard to quit, especially when your intuition is blaring in your head like a fire alarm. These words of yours really reminded me of a similar time I experienced. Everything you said I felt. Wonderful poem Colacat.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you! I’m so glad this is one you really felt.