Build Up

We can be so sad we can't cry- because there's such build up in us, but the only thing that can wash it away, like drain cleaner washes gunk away in your sink, is crying.

There was something stuck in my throat.

And I checked and checked.

But I couldn't see anything.

I didn't dare bring up the subject.

Because I was frightened of what I'd really find.

With the lump in my throat, I wept and I wept.

And I missed when I used to sleep.

I only did once since then, slept.

The night I shoved the idea aside.

But it was lodged in there.

Until I returned to the place I most feared.

The doctor.

As I cried there, my makeup smeared and I pondered 'What's wrong with me? Is it my own doing that I can't breathe?'

I couldn't help but seethe.

And when the doctor arrived, and put the stick on my tongue, almost down my throat, I opened wide.

"It's nothing we can fix," she sighed, "only you can," she declared.

"What do you mean?" I stared.

"You can't figure out why you can't breathe, right?"

I nodded.

"And you wanna breathe right?"

I nodded.

"Well, your problem is your problems. They've built up so much in your heart, they've lodged in your throat."

I almost choked.

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CONTINUED:

I went to swallow the lump in my throat, my problems.

But then I realized it was hardly there anymore.

Instead replaced with tears.

And the more tears I cried,

The better I could breathe.

    

Author's Note

I'm actually really nervous to post this because it's quite different than what I've posted before! But please review and tell me what you think! Thank you (:

Reviews

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

What do I think?
Well if this is true, than I am sorry to hear that you're not doing well and I hope you get better soon.

But if it's fiction, you captured my attention from beginning to end and had me hanging on your every word.

Either way, thank you for sharing.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for reading! I'm doing very well and thank you. (: I'm so glad you liked it

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

Glad to hear you're doing well.
You're welcome. :)

[AJNJ]

The more I read you the more I appreciate the wisdom in your writes. The obvious little truths in life that you see so much better than so many of us. Not crying one's heart out when sadness overwhelms us can be a very suffocating experience. I myself cry unabashedly, even though I am a guy and it never fails to uplift me. I consider it my strength rather than a weakness. I am not a wimp not to cry. Loved this poem Colacat. Simple stated and beautifully written!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

I can't thank you enough for such a kind and in-depth review. What you said means a ton to me and hey, it doesn't matter whoever you are! Men get teased and made fun of for not being 'masculine' enough when they cry or don't even show signs of just being strong all the time, and it's ridiculous! You be you and it's good to cry when you need to, and it's so silly to think men can't/shouldn't cry! Thank you so, so much again it means more than I can say.

[AJNJ]

It was my pleasure, my friend! Looking forward to more such great poems!

[Rose]

This is... Relatable unfortunately. But hey! Words... sometimes they can free that painful lump in our throat that we just.. hold onto... the fear of letting go of our sadness and being sad... This Poem definitely is relating to how I am feeling lately, as... well.. I found out I love my best friend! Anyways, I won't bore you with my problems, but this poem, it was beautiful ❤️

[Vertigo Cat1111]

I don't think you could bore me with your problems! Thank you so much for the review and if you feel like you're comfortable enough... tell them! Either way, whatever happens, I'll be on here if you need a little pick me up. (:

[Rose]

Thank you so much! Likewise! If you ever need to vent, and are comfortable enough, I'd love to listen! After all, I think we're both really good with words, and friends like that can usually help with problems! ❤️

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so, so much. This means the world to me. (:

[NiomaNorma]

I like it a lot. Anyone with anxiety could relate to this greatly. Great work.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so so much (:

[Jimmy Yetts]

Novel and colorful.
Enjoyed the humorous undertones.
From sadness to throat lump to cleansing crying, a compelling read.
Nicely done, Colacat!

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it so very much. (:

[David Klay]

A clever and creative write. It is going into my favorites. :)

[Vertigo Cat1111]

This means so much to me. Thank you so so much. (:

[Michelle Lauren]

I love the concept .... may I steal it? .... JK of course .... you say this is different than your other works but from my hart to yours it works ..... I say this with love; just tighten it up grammatically and you’ll have a winner ... love it! .... XO

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you! The feedback is very much welcome and I can never thank anyone who takes the time to read and review enough. Thank you.

[Michelle Lauren]

Your so welcome XO

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I think this portrays in an imaginative fashion how problems can lead to physical manifestations, and thankfully you 'took up your bed'.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you! I’m so glad you like it, it means so much to me. (:

[Davidgeo]

It kinda degrades at the end but I think there is some good truth you shared with this. Those very last two lines are magnificent and I think very honest.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for the review!

[Ladysue]

I thought this was a very creative way to portray that part of the heart that holds pain and builds up until we can release it with tears. brilliantly written..

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I was very nervous to post this one, as it was a bit different, but I'm happy that the feedback seems positive. (: I really appreciate the review.

[Ladysue]

My pleasure..it was very creative done..

[Marina]

Crying is definitely therapeutic; I believe it has even been scientifically proven to help with grief and our mental state. Our problems can build up to a point of high anxiety and we struggle to breathe and handle our issues. A good cry always makes the dam burst inside and we feel much better after it. Truth or fiction, I hope your breathing is free and easy again.💛

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I'm doing very well as of now, and I hope the same for you. (: Thank you for reviewing and the thoughtfulness in your words.