LA Nights

Certain things just never stop hurting no matter what we do. There’s no way around it. What do we do then?

I’m still holding onto that hope
That one day I’ll learn to let you go
There are times I feel like I don’t care
And other times I still love you
It’s not fair
Maybe in another life
But all the signs point away from you
I miss our California nights

Those faint dots of light
When we got lost looking for the hotel
And wandered the streets of LA
So dangerous
So lost
But so happy

Amusement parks
And stupid jokes
The warmest home I’d ever been in has been sold
Everyone warned me
So I paid the toll

This isn’t fair
You haven’t said a word
Like you’re trying to cover up a murder
I’m never sure
It just hurts

Simply seventeen
And morning light shining through the curtains
Getting up early just to spend time

No matter the bad that happened
You were there
Playing puzzles
Relishing in the sun
Going grocery shopping
Never stopping

You’re not the same person
You can’t be
Why does hurt like this exist?
It’s been months
And I’m still stuck in an abyss

You could have prevented everything

But so could I

Some loves never fade
And I guess you’re the one that’s here to stay
Because you did everything wrong
You’re unforgivable

It’s late at night that I still miss you
I found what I was looking for
But it still miss you
I know I shouldn’t take you back
You’re not even you anymore
But I still miss you

I love my new life more than I ever loved you
But I still miss you
The days are so much brighter than a year ago
But I still miss you
You never even loved me as much as I loved you I know that
But I still miss you

You caused so much panic and tears
But I still miss you
I wouldn’t change anything I have right now
But I still miss you
You stabbed me in the back
But I still miss you

Fall came and love was swept away
My fault or your fault?
You made promises
But so did I
And they shattered at the same time like a mirror

I’m home
This doesn’t feel like home
Where are you?
Talk to me

We hurt each other
But we could’ve moved on together
Now I’m stuck in an endless night
A never ending fight
A burnt out light
My sights going out
Every morning you’re not here
Every burning and blinding tear

And your friends
They’re gone
They’re leaving
I’m gone too
But not in the way I want
Come back please

I was so scared when the fires
broke
And I’m still scared
Because look what’s happening now
But I have to be silent

Autumn leaves falling
New voices calling
The Magic’s gone
It’s a whole new song
I want the middle of the night
I want it all back
No matter what I do
No matter how many destinies I fulfill its still you

I guess I’m not your LA Devotee anymore
I’m just as broke as that mirror
And time won’t last
I’m still stuck
Still yours

I guess it wasn’t meant to be
But that doesn’t mean I still don’t want it

Author's Note

Saaaaad. ); please tell me what you think and review! Thank you.

Reviews

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Its a beautiful story
As you see it never meant to be.
I wish life will guide you in the light way,
When you letting go everything will gose way, let everything thing go, she will let everything go.
If there is anything maybe next life,
There is no longer the same person anymore, someone has long dead just I don't want admit, thanks for everything take care Goodbye, I'm still confused is you or him, but doesn't matter anymore it's all not want I'm looking for

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for reviewing, it really helps so much (:

[barleygirl]

I realize that many people go on & on in their minds, exactly as you've depicted in your poem . . . so this is an accurate portrayal of how it looks & feels & sounds inside someone's head that cannot let go. But as a poem to read for some measure of entertainment or enlightenment? I'm just not catching that here. This is just too much for me . . . too long . . . too repetitive . . . too delusional . . . too whiny. No wonder this guy left this narrator, is what some people will be thinking. Who could stand to stick around & listen to a non-stop spiel of whatever this person does on a daily basis? I know sometimes we have to imitate life in our art & this poem does that . . . people do this . . . you're telling it in a way that makes us tired, just like these kinds of people make us tired. I don't know what to do with a poem like this! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for a long and intricate review. I’ll keep this in mind next time I write a poem like this!

[Ladysue]

A beautiful poem filled with touching emotions and vivid images. There seems to,always be that one person who lingers with us no matter how long ago parted even when we are happy. sometimes someone just touches our heart and it’s forever changed and always remembered. Beautifully moving write.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I really loved the way you explained it and hit it right on the mark. Reviews mean so much to me, thank you (:

[Ladysue]

your welcome.. :))

[butterfly]

A beautiful poem filled with emotions I felt the courage and the passion as well as the sadness that earth love can bring. It makes me hold on to hope too. Thanks for writing this amazing piece.

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much, I’m glad everyone seems to like this one, as it’s one I wrote one a whim! Haha thank you again. It warms my heart to see reviews.

[Rose]

Wow! The Metaphors are amazing here! Amazing work! 💓

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it (: 💕

[Patricia Wedel]

dearest ColaCat... reminds me of the Song
“Because of you God made Oklahoma”.
You can live a lifetime, but the one that
did not last is always there. It is clear that
It is embedded in your Heart and Soul
forever and a day. gently. Pat

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Very true words! Thank you so much for reading and reviewing (:

[Just Kim]

beautiful yet touching, I like this. Very powerful write

[Vertigo Cat1111]

Thank you so much for reading and reviewing! (:

[Just Kim]

not a problem