Facade

having a dark year- This is not quite right, it doesn't explain everything the way i wanted to.

 

Waking again. Its not as lovely as it sounds

Everyday is a fight, gotta keep fighting

Keep harsh thoughts from taking over

Remember, as dark tendrils spread

That the sun will rise tomorrow

 

But the feelings always return

Anger, self loathing, pity, hatred

Craving for painful release

Sickness that could kill

 

They’re always there, spreading

I can feel them suffocating me

Taking away the old freedom

Leaving a void full of pain

 

Nightmares come and whisper

Replaying mistakes, regrets

Make things seem so real

Lying in bed, waiting

 

Fight, fight so hard

To be the one who lives in the sun

Living every moment

Creating positive energy

 

Breaking, tired, sad

 

Sink into drunken oblivion

It becomes hard to think

Forget everything, even the screams

It can make fake happiness

 

Grow up, it is time now

Should have stopped all this

Cope somehow, be stronger

Its not as easy as that

 

Become utterly lost inside

Screaming, chasing thoughts in circles

Immersed so completely

It seems there is no escape

 

Reiterate, create a mantra

Cannot take the easy way out

Every day is new, it is just hard today

 

 

 

Reviews

[*** Hey Jude***]

This write shows life has so much to offer when we open ourselves to it! Everyone will have trouble everyone will go through pain, but if we choose we can start to live once again. I love the whole piece, and most definitively agree in having a mantra, as well as meditation. Each new day is a gift, lets open it! Beautiful expressions~ Jude :-)