I Find Myself

I find myself, every moment

In anguish yet again-

Not because of what we had

But for what we might have been

 

My tortured soul, it mourns, it weeps

But not for us together

I only cry so uncontrolled

Cause I thought we’d be forever

 

I’m not my own, dear heart,

I gave myself to you

Even though a lacking gift

I hoped that it might do

 

I need you, love,

I can’t do this on my own

I crave every bit of you

In every shape and form

 

Baby, please come back to me

I beg you please come home

Or let me back into your arms

For that’s where I belong

 

My heart, my soul, please tell me

Did I dream to high?

It was only for the thought of you

Made me feel as I could fly

 

And so I beg on bended knee

Please to take me back

Lest my broken shell should fall away

Slipping through the cracks

 

But do not worry, dear

Myself I shall not harm

I do not wish to cause that fear

But I thought that I might warn-

 

Whatever happens, I know, I hope

My love will get me by

For you I live, for you I strive

Maybe I’ll even survive-

Living on the hope that once again

I’ll see my love reflected in your eyes

 

 

And so I’ll keep the pieces, dear

Of all our shattered dreams

In hope that we might once again

Share them both between

 

Alone my life is naught

I am an empty shell

Only you can rescue me

From inside of my own hell

 

So please, my love,

This nightmare, make it stop

But if you ask, I’ll wait forever

With none, but you, in my heart