Everything I Never Said

A song I wrote about dear friends who are drifting away...

Nine years passed by,

Faster than we thought, 

Can I take back

Those Times

I hid in a shell

Waiting for sunrise,

And spend them with you?

Not caring what's ahead of us,

Just with you,

Saying what I should have

All these years,

Just rewriting our past?

I know I can't....

So I'm spilling my heart

In this song,

Telling you everything

 I never said,

Before we both move on.

Chorus:

I will never forget:

The times we laughed,

The hearts we broke,

The times we held on

And never let go.

The times we fought

And apologized,

Knowing we loved each other,

The whole time.

The days we spent

Living without regret.

The times I never cried

Cause you were always by my side.....

Please don't fade,

Please don't move on,

If anything,

Please remember this song.

Do you remember:

The stories we told?

Hide and seek,

No matter how old?

That pink teddy bear,

The curls in your hair,

And glitter everywhere?

The names on your wall,

And standing on the edge,

Trying not to fall?

Watching me walk away

From it all?

I want you to know,

I'll never do that again....

I never knew what I had

Until I left.....

So I'm spilling my heart

In this song,

Telling you everything

 I never said,

Before we both move on.

Chorus x1

I never wanted to leave you behind,

I never wanted to let go and cry,

I never thought this would hurt so badly,

I never wanted this.........

What are we doing with our lives?

Moving on without goodbye.....

So I'm spilling my heart

In this song,

Telling you everything

I never said,

Before we both move on.

Don't you ever forget:

The times we laughed,

The dreams we made,

The ways we danced,

In the rain.

The times we held on

And never let go.

The times we fought,

And were together again,

Knowing we couldn't live

Without being best friends.

The days we spent

Living without this regret.

The times I cried

Cause you're fading from my side.....

Please stay perfect,

Please stay strong,

If anything,

Please remember this song.

I don't know

If I'll see you again....

My best friend....

Don't ever let go...

I could never say it all;

This one regret will haunt me

Every Fall

When I open the doors

And not see you there,

And I'll flashback to the first time,

I saw those curls in your hair...

I will never forget you.

Author's Note

I know this was long but there really is no way I can say it all, and this was so hard to write.....This song is about my two best friends in the world. When I skipped 8th grade, I left them behind in junior high. Last night was their graduation from that school (and was supposed to be mine too) and every year the graduating class puts together a slide show of baby pics and the grads getting older and older, etc.....during the slide show I had the most flashbacks I've ever had...I saw every time I laughed with them, all of our memories, stories we told each other, growing up with each other, fighting and making up....It felt like the first time I actually cried from my heart....it was weird; I always thought whenever you cry it does come from the heart, but this was different. I felt it with my heart, soul, and mind.....the hurt was unreal.......I went to the after party and had the time of my life, and when I got home I took a shower. And in the shower I started crying again, realizing I may never see them again, and how much I had never said to them. I never realized before how much they loved me and helped me. And it was when I knew that I was leaving them that my depression got the worst....How could I miss something like that? This song is the hardest thing I've ever written, and I just wish I could go back and be with them again, just tell them everything before I left. Just to make sure they know how important they are to me. I wouldn't trade the world for the memories they gave me. They're the best friends in the entire world, and I couldn't ask for anyone better.

Reviews

[SilentVerses]

Absolutely stunning, so raw and powerful a force to be reckoned with. It is in your honesty and brutal truth that you have derived such powerful emotions, pulling on the strings of the hearts of your readers. Such a powerful reaction as my eyes devoured your words of devotion. Do not let your heart be weighted by regrets, with this outlet let some of the pain within escape you as to not haunt you forever, there is a beauty in your writing that I greatly admire, such a meaning you caress in the grip for the loved ones you cherish. Your love shines a light on your talent, let the tears that fall help you to move on and accept yourself. x

[toniwilliamsga]

i absolutely love this song because it reminded me of my best fried she lives in hawaii and i am in georgia and we grew up together and then we both moved and this just reminded me of how much i miss her and love her nd couldnt be happier we are still in contact.thank you for reminding me how special she is and how lucky i am ti have her.

[Magic plus the mayhem.]

beautiful song! Its the same with my true freinds. I love them!

[ImagineItAll]

I didn't read your note until after I read your write. But while I was reading, I was instantly reminded of my best friend when I was younger and how she left me (not her choice). I love when you talk about glitter and curls, it's a beautiful song.

[Muse]

Best friends.............. even when you outgrow them, are forever. This is a beautiful tribute.

[Jaded Mermaid]

I can agree so much with SilentVerses. It's raw and clear cut. It portrays regret but yet you're so much just saying you're moving on and they are too. It's a portrait of every shade in color.

[Lily Mae]

A beautiful tribute in memory of those moments shared.. and for the ones yet to come..xx