therapy

It's been a month

I'm still crying

it burns

it aches

I had therapy today

she told me to let the waves of pain hit

let them wash over me

and to stop associating them with you

and what I think I lost

and to just call them what they are

Panic

Fear

Sadness

Hurt

Grief

"Walk into the pain," she said.

So I'm going to practice it

because I want to heal

She said you're narcissistic

I didn't even have to prompt her

She said you have no idea who you are

what you want

you've worn a mask all your life

you married yourself so you will only ever

have to rely on

yourself

She said that's sad.

I am starting to agree.

She said what you showed me, you realized wasn't sustainable

because it wasn't real

It helps hearing her say it

undressing the beautiful cloaks I covered you in

I cannot wait until I have the clarity

the clarity you asked me for repeatedly

but never gave to me

Author's Note

Honestly this was a one shot deal - no revisions, no major thought or grand plan to the thing. I wonder if it will even make sense to an outsider. Feedback is welcomed.

Reviews

[Chris]

It makes perfect sense - the first time through. We give so much and tie so much of our selves into our perception of the one we love.

[Coccinellidae]

Thank you so much for the feedback and for relating. Glad it makes sense :)

[keith]

not much to say ... it's raw it's honest
and that's what hurts so much about an ending that's not
good read good write

[Coccinellidae]

Thank you for the feedback and the interest :)

[keith]

i am one to appreciate a good write from a good pen and you have both