Dopamine

She can't give up the euphoria she feels when she spends time with him. Even though she knows it may hurt her in the end.

Desperately I soak up your rays

Fully aware they are of sun and death 

Though mere companions we will stay

I fool myself with every breath

And what I should do is run

Run for the hills and hide my heart

I drink you in like potent wine

I inject you into the bloodstream

Should I stop if it keeps me alive?

Should I stay if it makes me scream?

And what I should do is fight

Fight off the feelings before they start

You won't ever reciprocate

And yet I can't pull away

Your energy intoxicates

And gets me through another day

And what I should do--

New message from you

I forget fight or flight

I sigh, my eyes roll back

I've got my fix for the night.

Reviews

[Nisreen]

That one person comes along
and that's it

the brain switches off
and the body starts to demand that presence
you see them you calm down
you don't you go coocoo waiting for one second, one minute

you will take anything lol

i love this one as well

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Thanks so much! :D

[alanwgraham]

There is a real internal struggle going here. The 'fix' whatever it is is so attractive but we know we should resist the siren call.
You have described this battle well!
Thanks, Alan
You might find some link with my poems called 'manicarus' or 'creation' which describe my own experience of Bipolar mania.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Thank you so much for your review. I'm really glad you liked it!