Forgive Me

Originally penned on 6th Feb 2008. Amazing what one man can do.

Forgive me for liking you.
Forgive me for thinking you were different.

I have relatives who look down on me when I do things out-the-ordinary,
yet they act like they care when times get tough.
 

That makes me feel like an idiot:
if I can't be respected for believing what I want,
then how the heck can I trust them with my feelings and emotions?

The vinegar soaked chips in the greaseproof paper of the man opposite me on the tube
Stung my eyes.
I wanted to cry.

If you were sensitive you'd write to me saying why you can't be with me.

Sometimes men can be so insensitive that they make you cry without intention. 

All I can taste is cigarettes and saliva. It's disgusting.
I feel like sleeping with several men. That's disgusting too.

Amazing what one man can do.

Author's Note

Disjointed but what can I say - read the bottom line.

Reviews

[Buddhistboy73]

mmm, ok so i feel your emotions in this piece, which has to be a good thing in my book. Moved me....loved the line "i feel like sleeping with several men. That's disgusting too."
Normally i like to offer advice on improvements, but this seems not to warrant that...:)

[Angel's Lady]

Raw, and honest - I like it very much. Power is a force, no matter who wields it, and good or bad, we all have some of it within us...so make sure you use your power for good! ;)

Great write!

[melissa]

very unique!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

You are correct on what one person can do to you, amazing the power one can hold over our emotions... I like the raw approach here... straight forward with your feelings... the best kinda poetry.

[bluessadmood]

This was nice though very sad ..but this is how we become,I really do understand
Forgive me if I liked you,forgive I thought you different..
Makes me feel like an idiot,if I am not respected for believing what I want
How i am supposed to trust my feelings or emotions,some men so insensitive
Makes me cry,as I taste the cigarettes,so disgusting
Or feel like sleeping with several..its so disgusting
Oh that was a very strong write,I know how some behaves,it must have hit you hard
To say all those bitter things..
sad ,bitter but really well done ..I really loved this

[R J Askew]

I sense a air of innocece on the cusp of experience as life goes about its bruising education, sewing its usual disillusionment and despair. A sad moment. That last half of the poem particularly caught my eye as it is so evocative. The crisps engage susual memories in the mind. It's horrible when people eat on the tube. And the use of the moment acts as a trigger to the reader's sympathy. We understand how little things can set us off for all kinds of reasons at all stages of life. The line 'Sometimes men can...etc' is innocent but also glaringly true. It's interjection between the sensuory triggers -- the crisps, the f**s and the saliva -- seems to contrast with other sensual matters which are both alluring and the cause of much misery. It's not nice to feel bad, but you nail the moment down wonderfully in those last eight lines especially.

[Fairy Tales]

ah i could just hug you....i know men can be curel to us! so you open that heart and let yur poems pour out! I loved your poem, though sad...it was brilliantly written.