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Dirk: Okay. What's the deal.

Margaret: The deal is no concern of yours.

Dirk: But it is my concern. If it isn't my concern then I have no concern.

Maragaret: Correct. So, it thus appears that you have nothing to concern you today.

Dirk: But I need something to concern me or I will die of being unconcerned.

Margaret: Funny. Let's go to the movies.

Dirk: I want to know what I am supposed to be concerned about first.

Maragaret: What would you think if I got a sex change operation?

Dirk: Ummm would that be what is concerning me today?

Margaret: Well, not today, but some time in the future, yes, I'd hazard to guess.

Dirk: Huh. Well I can't say I know what I'd say if you planted such a bombshell on me. I might divorce you.

Maragaret: You would cease loving me if I were a man?

Dirk: Well, yes.

Margaret: Maybe we should get a divorce now.

Dirk: Well, we could, people like running away from things the second they get a little difficult especially relationships and marriages.

Margaret: Is that your commentary on America or mankind?

Dirk: I have no commentary. I just like to say things to say things.

Maragaret: So you have no reason for any of the things you say? You just say them to pass the time and keep yourself from realizing how pointless everything is?

Dirk: Umm, well, I wouldn't go as far as that, no. Because I believe... I really do.. I'm not kidding... that, well, umm, you know, that we all have some kind of a... ummm a reason, a... umm... purpose... umm plan or some such thing that should ummm keep all of us... going and growing and... ummm wanting to know... and ummm experience as much as ummm.... ummm well, we can. Obviously, yeah. So ummm, no, I don't ummm.... believe that, well.... ummm....

Maragaret: With all those umms you would have failed a public speaking course. I want to go to the movies. I want to laugh. Do you want to laugh?

Dirk: You know... I want to ummm discuss something with you that won't ummm have too many laughs involved.

Margaret: Do we have to be serious and treat life as though it mattered? Could we please just stop worrying and fretting and exhausting ourselves by having to make sure how much others love us and adore us and worship us and want nothnig but the best for us, can't we just once have a little fun, Dirk?

Dirk: We have plenty of fun I just like to umm... you know make some kind of an ummm effort to talk a little once in a while asbout things that might make us happy and such in the long run, you know. Well, ummm, please try not to be so bored and grouchy ummm that's not gonna do either one of us any good in this particular ummm.... yeah. okay. let's ummm let's umm, yeah, i just don't know sometimes. You know, I ummm awake in the morning, and I umm see the grass as the blue sky and hear the birds, and I feel umm... a little umm.....

Margaret: That's all I can take right now. Now I'm going to the movies. Are you coming along?

Dirk: No umm I don't think so. I want to stay here and think about things for a while. Umm, yeah, I feel... I really do, I'm not joking... that I need to sort a few things out because I feel.... yes, feel, emote, and such that... ummm well I just need to think and feel out a number of things for a while, so I love you and I'll see you later.

(Silence. Thunder. Lightening. More silence. Margaret sitting, pondering and wondering and considering, and thinking of how her life has become something she isn't so certain of anymore while Dirk just stares into space... attempting to figure something out about all that has taken place and what is to come and why such things that will happen in the future will take place. Margaret begins to talk endlessly.)

Margaret: Naturally, Dirk. Naturally. When I was younger, 21 or so. My sister and I went to a concert in Mississippi. I don't remember who the group was, but we were very pretty, avaialble girls, and at this concert these other girls praised us for how pretty and innocent we were. Blythe and I didn't really know who or what or why we were attracted to, but these girls seemed nice and they were very attractive, so we went home with them and they showed us loving as we've never been shown it before. They manhandled and beat us to a pulp all night, and I must say I loved it because it was the only time I ever felt alive in my entire life. They ended up carrying us to their truck after just having their way with us for hours and hours, and when we finally regained our consciousness we find ourselves lying on some highway way out with nothing around us for miles. We hitchhiked back to Michigan. Two more girls picked us up and the same thing happened. It was so unfortunate and it made me feel that the only way I would ever feel alive and wanted was if I was abused beyond all recognition so please keep that in mind, Love.

Dirk: Wow... ummm.... I zoned out there for a while. What did you say?

Margaret: Never you mind. I have a few more stories I could tell you but I didn't feel alive in any of them so I could not tell them with as much passion and such... but....

Dirk: Monkeys.

Margaret: Yes, monkeys.... Monkeys.... Monkeys....