Sinking

I just sat down and wrote I'm not in that great of a mood.

I barely look at myself anymore

 

I hate

The way my eyes are uneven

The way my lips aren't big enough

The way my nose breaks out when im stressed

The way my hair is never perfect

The way my breast never look even

The way the fat on my stomach overwhelms the skinny girl inside

 

I hate

That I hate myself so much

That my father agrees that im fat

That every little thing i do is always wrong

That I can't seem to keep it together,

Expecially when everyone is expecting me to fall apart

 

I am never good enough

And I feel like I'm slowly sinking

Sinking to a place that I can't go back to

Yet something has ahold of me

It just doesnt want to let me go

 

I used to get those hands off of my legs

Used to sacrafice my pain in order to drag myself back up

But I'm sick of bleeding

I am so sick of people expecting so much out of me

I have nothing left to give

But people just keep taking and taking

As I am sinking and sinking

Until one day I'm completely submerged and there just happens to be

 

Nothing left of me.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

I don't think you should hate yourself... as humans we are all imperfect. That is what makes us unique. Within our faults lies our true beauty. Don't listen to your father saying you are too fat. This obsession with being thin is ridiculous. Voluptuous is beautiful. Just my humble opinion. I can see how todays society could make you feel this way but it shouldn't.