Bring me to life.

A little fantasy of mine. Its just a dream.

Life seems dull. I find myself secluded from society. I hide in my head were I slowly drive myself insane. Depression has warped my views on life and I now only see beauty in this world when I’m intoxicated by some substance or another. I am secretly an emotional mess but nobody in existence is aware of the anger and loneliness I feel. I yearn for excitement and something new but I just don't know where to look, my soul feels beaten and as if it need to be revived. This restless feeling finally overtakes me and I leave my lonely house. I decide to drive downtown to get out of my head. This is my first time ever doing something like this, I never venture anywhere but tonight i could no longer take it.

            

There were people all over the city. I felt uncomfortable and unsure around the crowds. I caught the eye of a girl who had midnight black hair with bangs that nearly covered her eyes. She had bright red lipstick on and when we made eye contact she gave me a wink and a slight smile. This instantly made me nervous as does nearly any sort of attention from a woman from the years alone and days spent in my head. I ,much to shy and quiet to approach her, walked away into the crowds.

My insides were still going crazy and my frustration at myself continued to build for not speaking to this girl. After a while I eventually found myself sitting alone at a bus stop wandering around in my head. I began to smoke a joint I brought to attempt to ease my thoughts. As I am sitting I see this mysterious girl once again. She was walking from the crowd of people over to the bus stop were I was. As she approached me my heart began racing faster and faster with every step she took. I stressed my brain on what I could possibly say to her but nothing came. I finally find her only steps away when she says the first words. "May I join you?" 

Her voice was soft and calm and I nervously replied "yes" as she took a seat next to me. She commented on how it was a little depressing that I was sitting alone getting high with all these people around. I try to respond but have trouble because of how nervous I am. I am shaking slightly but am trying to hide it and find myself sounding strange. As I attempt to continue this feeling becomes more overwhelming until she stops me and puts her finger to my lips and her hand on my chest. She feels my heart pounding and looks into my eyes. She says "be calm, you don't need to worry." Her voice sounded like an angels and my heart began to slow. Those words stuck to me and I had a reassuring feeling sweep over me. It was unspoken but when I looked into her eyes there was a look of understanding, a look of pain, and a look of another soul who is so very lost in this world. 

We talked for a while and she asked why I was in the city. Saying I don’t really look like I belong here. I explained how I needed something new in my life and I didn’t want to be alone in my apartment all night. She responded by taking a small vial out of her jacket pocket and raised it near my face. She said "I would love to keep you company and if you want a wild night stick out your tongue." I thought only a second or two before I shot my tongue out of my mouth and she dropped two drips of pure LSD onto my tongue followed by three more onto hers.

 

My heart is racing again, this time not out of nervousness, but out excitement. She sparked something in me. This was the first time in my entire life I had ever felt comfortable enough with a person to talk to them endlessly. We raced to my car and I drove us back to my apartment. By this time I was already feeling slightly nauseous and I noticed my field of vision was completely enhanced once I stepped into my apartment and turned on the light. I looked back at her when she came inside and time froze. I had never seen someone so beautiful. Her black hair partially in her face and life ran through her. The moment seemed like it could have lasted forever but I snapped out of it. 

We went to my room where I turned on music and put it at full volume. It sounded surreal as we both lie on my floor looking at each other and our surroundings. Patterns shifted and moved across my ceiling and walls and everything had some type of life or movement to it. When I shut my eyes colors flashed and waved through my vision like waves crashing against my eyelids. My thoughts were going wild as an overwhelming feeling of completion and happiness ran through me. We stayed up the entire night sharing complex thoughts and genuine emotion. She made it easy; she understood me and was the first person to ever see anything in me. She reminded me that there was so much beauty in the world. She reassured me everything was going to be alright. She saved me.

As we spent the rest of the night just talking and drawing and enjoying the lasting effects of the LSD a feeling stayed with me. It was a feeling of calmness, a feeling of life. It was this feeling I had been looking for all along. This girl came along and brought me to life. She was beautiful down to the core and although I had just met her that night she had changed me forever. I was completely in love with this human being and during that night we were the only ones who existed.

Reviews

[Drizzle]

I loved this story. I also admire how everything is in place and your ideas are well laid out. What touched me the most about this story was the fact that i have had a similar experience in my life but the person who has changed me is slowly drifting away from me. But i love how you explained your life changing experience