What It Means to Fall

I hit the floor again tonight
I'm filling all these empty bottles with lies. 
Sometimes I wish that I could lie awake at night
And find the answers to the questions that ravage my mind. 
But there's no way to calm down from this. 
I've lived inside the past for so long
The future's walked on by
And now I'm left in the dark alone. 
I'm stuck inside a jar of glass 
And there you are, falling in love right in front of my eyes 
I wish that I could sew them shut and pretend that I'm alright 
But all I can do is watch you leave me behind. 
I'm living in a nightmare
Trapped in my darkest dream
When I tell myself to forget you
But instead I just forgive everything you've done. 
How can I move on
When you pick me up after you break me down? 
I don't know. 
I guess I fell so helplessly in love with you 
That I even forgot how to stand. 
There's no way to come down from this. 
Too many memories to leave you alone
And so you take my hand for the hundredth time
And say you'll never let me go. 
I'm stuck inside a jar of glass 
And there you are, falling in love right in front of my eyes 
I wish that I could sew them shut and pretend that I'm alright 
But all I can do is watch you leave me behind. 
I bet it all on black. 
But I lost again to you. 
The Queen of Hearts with eyes like stars
She's dried up my tears with scars.