This part of me

His words come out

I see him hesitate

I hold my breath

Waiting for the next sound

That might nurture my heart

Or will confirm my fears

 

My chest pounding

As guilt leans on

In hope that he feels love

And not anger, nor deception

For my hectic

And despair behaviour

When I don’t recognize myself

But that definitely pushes him away

 

Then anything from him

Comes with deep interpretation

A look down, or aside

An absence of smile

Silence

The time he takes to formulate

An answer to those simple questions

 

It’s like my fate will be

Sealed at the end of his sentence

From which every word tortures me

With its suspense

Of a happy

Or reject epilogue

 

My body’s tense and dry

Light as a cloud

Just electricity from all this cortisone

That burns my inner pride

And melts it all inside

Until I might fall down

Eaten away, from fear of him

To hate this part of me

Reviews

[Crow]

I find your words and imagery thought provoking, my mind is inspired to wander through my feelings.

I sense being lost in one's own chaos, life. Then as though seeking an anchor to reality, we wonder what is to come. Then suddenly we feel a strange energy, and retract ourselves even more.

[Jack...]

This is exquisite, so beautiful does it flow,as if it is sung to me by my minds melody. I truly enjoyed this piece...it made me pain for you and rejoice in the same breath. Very nice.

[Michael Soul]

beauty in words

[MoriartyMesa]

Call it a musical mood, but i felt the background felt like http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmsKXB4PGWc something very operatic about it.

[Suditi]

This is a beautiful piece.
Wow.
Loved it.

[Lilmissfit]

this is an amazing, wonderful poem and your a great poet :) i hope you write tons more. i can relate to it very well and i love your choice of works it fits perfectly

[Seshat Nidaba]

The tense neuroticism in this is gorgeous, your style does indeed feel European and as such, appeals to me for its spectrum of focus and sincerity.

I liked several lines such as:

1. Just electricity from all this cortisone
2. An answer to those simple questions

94,

[skigirl]

Good Job!!! It looks like you took a lot of time writing it. Can't read to read more!!!!