Nothing I can do

You came to me

With such a selfish claim of attention

Of love, of a high connection

And I gave you a piece

Of my heart that I ripped 

For you to chew

With open arms

And smiling right at you

As if you deserved it

As if by your presence

You were just entitled to it

It's not like you earned it

At all

 

I am learning

To hate you

Oh God!

But I can't hate you

Neither can I forget you

Nor reduce you

Can’t pretend you don't

Pierce me through

There is no more hiding from this feeling

That I had forgotten

I had convinced myself that you were

Gone

That you were

Just a dream 

That maybe our connection was

A misunderstanding

That what I read inside of you

Was not your soul

And not your heart

But just a mere

And blind mistake

 

You had to come to me

Though you had sworn before your heart

And vowed to me

In your silence

That you would let me be

That you would let me live my life

Free

But since this night 

The past has been holding me 

Tight

Here I am feeling the same pain

I felt back then

 

Here I am

On

My 

Knees 

Before the beauty of 

Your light

This taste of you

So easily wiped out

All that I thought I knew

Destroyed

All I had built

To stay away

And there is nothing I can do

Why is there nothing I can do?

I wanted to escape

Had succeeded in turning you

Into the face of someone else

But now I know

Now I saw

And there is nothing more 

That I can do

Oh God!

Why do I have to go through

Losing you

I wish...

I could hate you

Reviews

[hannah]

The rhythm of the poem was unstable for the first few stanzas when I was reading it. Later on in the poem, it became steadier to the point that it flowed quite freely and then at the latter part became unstable once again. But nonetheless, the theme of this poem seemed mysterious and gothic to me, making it a delicious read. Keep it up.

[Member Now Left]

A beautiful poem straight fromthe heart

[Jonathan De Elvira]

this was carefully written and was very good...I can understand that though...I know how that felt before...I'm glad all of that had finally gone now...

Thanks for sharing...keep writing...

[Dream Weaver]

O my Claire, this is smokin and hit's all the right spots..
Just a tad sad at the end tho..beautiful write....