Nothing I can do

You came to me

With such a selfish claim of attention

Of love, of a high connection

And I gave you a piece

Of my heart that I ripped 

For you to chew

With open arms

And smiling right at you

As if you deserved it

As if by your presence

You were just entitled to it

It's not like you earned it

At all

 

I am learning

To hate you

Oh God!

But I can't hate you

Neither can I forget you

Nor reduce you

Can’t pretend you don't

Pierce me through

There is no more hiding from this feeling

That I had forgotten

I had convinced myself that you were

Gone

That you were

Just a dream 

That maybe our connection was

A misunderstanding

That what I read inside of you

Was not your soul

And not your heart

But just a mere

And blind mistake

 

You had to come to me

Though you had sworn before your heart

And vowed to me

In your silence

That you would let me be

That you would let me live my life

Free

But since this night 

The past has been holding me 

Tight

Here I am feeling the same pain

I felt back then

 

Here I am

On

My 

Knees 

Before the beauty of 

Your light

This taste of you

So easily wiped out

All that I thought I knew

Destroyed

All I had built

To stay away

And there is nothing I can do

Why is there nothing I can do?

I wanted to escape

Had succeeded in turning you

Into the face of someone else

But now I know

Now I saw

And there is nothing more 

That I can do

Oh God!

Why do I have to go through

Losing you

I wish...

I could hate you

Reviews

[hannah]

The rhythm of the poem was unstable for the first few stanzas when I was reading it. Later on in the poem, it became steadier to the point that it flowed quite freely and then at the latter part became unstable once again. But nonetheless, the theme of this poem seemed mysterious and gothic to me, making it a delicious read. Keep it up.

[James Bonner]

Reading poetry of love (relationships) and sadness usually frustrates me. I don't feel anything, it all seems manipulated--it makes me cautious to read poetry. It makes life feel manipulated. Yours feels raw and comfortable. Sincere.

[TooSoon]

i admire your honesty and intensity in this poem, it seems very personal. thank you for sharing it.

[Liza]

i read this again
its intense just as the first time
but only today
i see you holding onto the love
and letting go of the hate

[Stephanie S]

i really liked this...and i think it flowed nicely... perfectly describing how you might know someone is wrong for you, despite this you pursue it and then deal with your own self angst....and i thought the words and stanza made that stand out more...thx for sharing....

[Liza]

this was a genuine and heart felt write
it made me realize how some of us just give our pieces away at the very beginning to allieve someone's distress and our need to save another with our love
only to discover we were deceived
the anger is not really at them but at ourselves for not containing and giving of ourselves so freely, to a perfect stranger....

[Akshat♥]

so long and nice as well.rhythm of the poem has to be more correct for 1st stanza.otherwise the whole poem is superb...take care:)

[Kelley]

pain and pleasure never mix or do they........smiles

[Tate Morgan]

This from the heart i Think it written well I would trim it down many emotions are best to experiance in as few stunning words as possible
tate

[Moonflower]

amazing purge of emotion.l