Awake

One of my current battles

It's a terror, this feeling
Sometimes felt with glee
Where my body starts to shake
And I'm weak at the knee

Dull ache can be felt shuddering my body
My head is weary
Eyes are watering
Words are formed but not spoken in order
This is what it's like to live with a sleeping disorder

Depression is not a cause
Sleeping pills make me mad
I just need one full night
For one day a little less sad

Flat on my back
My preferred position to rest
Finally I begin to drift off
And my mind starts the test

The doorbell rings
louder than normal
To a phantom visitor
And ever so familiar

Hours would pass as I doze off again
My body delighted but my mind yells
"NOW LETS BEGIN"

Reminding me of mistakes
Battles personal from long ago
My eyes close with tears
Screams soon follow

Author's Note

I need a gin.

Reviews

[Franky]

Oh my...I've been there. I'm serious

[Lyrically Inclined]

Man that sucks! I used to work third shift and had trouble sleeping in the beginning but I bought Black curtains and turned all the ringers off on the phones in the house (early 2000’s when people still had home phones 🤣, I’m old) and eventually started to love third shift. But that’s irrelevant. I hope you get some good sleep! There’s nothing like it! P.s. Alcohol does help!

[ckane]

I got rid of my house phone a few years ago because it wasn't very nice on my hall table, but yes I know those phones! I'm old too! Unfortunately yes, alcohol does help better than any pill, for a little while anyway. It comes and goes with a year or two in-between. Maybe it is my hours and stress. But we all have a little stress.

[Lyrically Inclined]

Sounds like you need a vacation!

[ckane]

And a Xanax!

[Lyrically Inclined]

🤣 Couldn’t hurt!