My Final Resting

Forgive these measures, now in the works
Subconscious, unconscious, the demon, he lurks..
Never before, but now I believe,
Capability present, no more shall I grieve.
The curtain is closing, relief drawing near,
No more fear of the darkness, I now darken the fear
Blackened the sun, embracing forever,
This knife is my key, endless rest my endeavor.

Author's Note

My final entry ?

Reviews

[Kristina Moulaison]

I'm glad you are writing about this and not acting it out. :) Love the line "No more fear of the darkness, I now darken the fear"..."the knife is my key" is really good too and "Forgive these measures" is such a great beginning, you can feel the regret, the love in those words. Your sweet smile is such a juxtaposition to these words.

[Chrys]

Thank you. There is a war going on within me, & I don't know which side that I am on. And even tho I don't have a chosen side, I feel like I am losing. I am writing like mad trying to keep myself weighted down, but it's starting to become moot, & I don't know how much effort I have left.

[Kristina Moulaison]

You have as much as you are willing to have. The human spirit has an infinite capacity to rise. Figure out what you need and figure out how to get it. Because you have to fight through a fog of emotion is what gives you the capacity to be an over comer. Be the hero in your own story. Don't trust your emotions. They are fleeting and transient. Question the unreasonable thoughts that come into your brain. Replace them with new ones, even if you don't feel them yet. Build a team of medication and people that works. You are worth any amount of effort that is required!

[emma]

This is such an intense write, you have a unique style that is expressed by such a great choice of words! Well done.
P.S this should defiantly not be your final entry, your way to good to stop!

[Lydia Shutter]

"No more fear of the darkness, I now darken the fear" An excellent line is a dark and intensely emotional write. I sincerely hope the words do not reflect the way you are truly feeling now. The rhyming in this is flawless and you obviously have poetic talent. Lydi**

[Chrys]

Sadly, yes, I wrote this while fighting off the thoughts in my head telling me that it is finally time to run.. I am struggling right now. My writing is the only thing keeping me chained to this world. And even that is becoming a mere hold up of what I feel is inevitable.. I'm still fighting however, To be continued..

[Lydia Shutter]

Please do not give up....do whatever you have to do to stay with us....you obviously have talent and it would be such a waste. I hope you find someone with whom you can speak.

[Priyanshi Dass]

This is such an intense write. Every line is beautiful. A well worded piece of work. Keep writing. Good luck and have a nice day.

[Tinkerbellje]

Hopefully not your final entry, given the meaning behind this. Very smoothly written and another thought provoking piece of work.

[Chrys]

I hope not. In this moment, I am in an overwhelmingly dark place.. My fear is breeding fear.

[Tinkerbellje]

Just a feeling, remember that. It passes..... just depends on how long. Keep strong :-)

[Chrys]

I wish I could believe that. But it's been 'just a feeling' for close to a dozen years now.. And now I have all but bought into the fact that this is me. I am imperfectly broken. In this last month my eyes have slowly been opening more to this concept of escaping... The pain conveyed in my writing lives in my heart. It is toxic. Poison. I want it to stop.. I'm afraid..