Abyss

I had laughed, and cried
But it was a long night, and exhaustion set in.
No one realized how irritated I had become.
Before they knew it, I wasn't able to speak.
The dark black being I had succumb.

I saw the shadows as they flew
Fear set in, but I didn't know why
I didn't understand how I ended up flat

on my stomach on the floor
This black abyss sitting on my back as if I was pinned.

I couldn't speak, no words came out.
But from within I let out a hideous screech.
I fought to reach out, to touch, but felt nothing.
There was a black pit deep in my chest.
That's where I'd remain like all the rest.

I kept hearing this voice it sounded much like my own
but the words were not mine, they were much to harsh
Thoughts ran through my mind, fear and doubt.
I was going lose my life that night
and there wasn't going to be any help.

I could hear them all calling for me
and screamed again, “get me out” but they couldn't hear.
I was defeated and weary, and experienced such a void inside.
And the closer to the end I got, the less light I saw.
I couldn't even find that other voice, the one I knew wasn't my own.

These thoughts of fear, of death, of disaster
they rang true in my mind.
I tried still to fight, and was falling desperately behind.
My voice felt hoarse I still couldn't speak or scream
I lay down my head, and fell deeper and deeper into the silence.

That pit, that void, the being, whatever it was
let it's guard down for a moment
And I felt someone touch my arm lightly, and life suddenly went through my body.
I moaned as I heard their voices again
And I wondered if they were there,
or if I was imagining it like so many things in my life before

“Who are you, Who are you” tell us what you are, they begged.
I still lay paralyzed, but inside the void dissipated. 
Tell them you are His, climb out. You are safe.
"Where were you that created such distance from us," they asked.
I was weak, and I was tired.
Confusion took over
Despair still lingered as I let out a sigh.

The dawn grew, and my hands were shaky.
This uncertain feeling, and fear that lingered
made me leery of stepping foot out of my bed

Exhaustion was prominent, and I tried to feel
something
anything
Was I dreaming all of this, and why did it seem so real?