Love that I crave

I don't know if the title is good I'm not really good at names

I crave for the love people have 

Yet I'm scared to love myself

I wonder how people love themselves 

I've never been able to do so 

Apart of me feels selfish for wanting to love myself

I'm scared that I'll lose myself when I'm in a relationship

I'll give someone everything, yet when someone does that for me it's scary

I wish that part of me didn't exist  

I'm jealous of the love others have for themselves 

I crave that people have for themselves 

It seems so easy why is it so hard to do 

The concept seems so foreign to me 

I've always tried to keep things on the inside

The idea of someone seeing me in an emotional and help of people makes me scared 

My emotional states will forever confuse me 

It's hard to explain how you feel when you don't how and why you are the way you are