Passionate Anxiety

Was our love a delusion like a dream

I wonder every cold and lonely night has our love been one side close to the end                           

Was your reasoning the real reason or did you lie 

Your intentions are haunting my thought like a demon

These demons are starting to destroy me 

If I was to ask would you have told me the truth 

If it was a lie why shouldn't my hate towards you not exist 

Your reason had me wondering if that wasn't the case would our love still be there

A love that seemed never-ending came to an end within a blink of an eye

These lonely nights where I wonder about our love 

Wondering if we tried could it have beat your reason

But what if your reasoning was a lie that consumed my thoughts 

And because of the, I would spend night wonder about you 

Crying my eyes out the feeling of loneliness and emptiness creeping in and wishing it would stop but knowing it won't 

Now my thought see me as pathetic to wish for a love that wasn't there at the end

Night after our end I would through our conversation wish to have it again 

Now looking back I'm starting to hate myself for it  

Those nights were torture  

The littlest things would make cry 

I remember the night where we would be in a call that would last for it feels to be an eternity

The names that would uplift me whenever we would call me each other 

But I wonder every passing since you left if those time we spent together real 

Were the time you told me you love me did you truly mean it 

Now thousands of questions that fill up my head but I can't ask 

Did you truly love me or was I just to help you pass some time 

I won't ask because I fear that I might get an answer that could kill me 

I also wonder if the promise we had did you honestly want to keep them 

Promises that made me smile uncontrollably and feel like our time together was timeless 

They make me feel like we could take whatever the world could throw at us 

Reviews

[Curtis.Lenker]

This poem really hit home with me. I know this feeling really well. I felt every line in my heart. I have been here to many times myself. Such powerful artwork here. I greatly appreciate you sharing this piece. Keep up the great work.