It's all going be all right

A Story by Chrissy

A girl thanks about her life story while on the bus.

It was two years ago when I was fifth teen I started liking this girl name Lisa she was so beautiful. She had long bleach blonde natural hair and the brightest baby blue eyes and she was short and just beautiful. Me and her really didn't fit together she was miss perfect and I was a some white trash girl with jet black short dyed hair and had a lip piercing. We where from two different worlds. But just one day it all change. She kept staring at me one day across the room in math class. I looked behind me to see who she was staring at. There was nobody behind me. I tuned around and she was sitting at my table across from me. She smiled brightly at me and said hey so calmly. I couldn't believe it was she actually talking to me I kept thinking to myself. We became good friends actually when the weeks want by.She ask to come over my house one day. I didn't know what to say I wanted to say no but just looking in her eyes made me say yes. And I didn't even mean to it just came out without thinking. I been over her house many times she had a really nice house and only thing I could think about is what she will think of my mom and her boyfriend yelling at each other and them being drunk and my s**t like house. Then she came over her eyes were wide looking around. I don't know what she was planing to see" I just took her hand and walked to my room with her. We where doing homework. But just looking at her made me want her so badly. But I know she didn't feel the same way about me. Then it happen she lean and kissed me softly.

Her kiss was so sweet and her lips where so soft. Then I took her by her waist and rolled on her and kissed every inch of her body she morn softly while I took her shirt off slowly and we where just holding each other making love. The next morning her head was on my b***s. I just smiled downed at her and laid back my head down on the pillow. She open her eyes and saw her face just glowing brighter then before. A few days ago we knew we where dated now. We where so close and always together we where together for a whole year. Then I found out That I had cancer. I tried to stay strong but I just kept crying so hard knowing that I would die and I cant be with her anymore. She always hugged me so tight when I was crying and told me everything was going be all right and she will always be there for me she always said she loved me and I could tell in her eyes she actually meant it. But I never learn how to say it back or was actually loved before because my mom or anyone never told me they all made me feel worst less and just a piece of s**t. Then it happen the worst day of my life I was walking across the street listening to the sounds of my thoughts lordly. And a car comes closer to me. I looked at it knowing I was going to die. But maybe I wanted to die. Lisa comes running over and pushes me out of the way. Because of my dumbness she gets hit while I lay on the side walk. Just shocked out of my mind. She was gone a whole bunch of people where around her. While I just sat there with my hands on my eyes crying so hard I couldn't even breath. Thanking why wouldn't it been me I was going to die anyways who her someone that has so much life ahead of her someone so loved by everyone and kind and perfect. Because of me it's all my fault.
"Hey girl it's your stop" The bus driver said
I got up and walked out of the door
I only have a year to live I'm 17 now but she could of have so many more if she didn't push me out of the way back them

"What a stupid thing to do" She says standing on the grass looking up
*Sighs* and walks into the hospital

I guess I actually did love her
*She smiled*