But I Kept Pushing You Away.

So depressed 

Feel the heart breaking in half.

Can't stop crying tears like a river.
Feeling the sickness in my stomach as I feel I'm going to throw up.

Why do I push people away.
I don't want this, I want you to stay.

You tried so hard.
But I kept pushing you away.

I'm sorry what I did.

I just added more stressed to your life  cycle.
I'm not ready to break another heart.

But I see that I already did.

I know I can't even handed myself.

So I was amazed that you could handed me.

But I kept  pushing you away.

I am afraid to get hurt.

I am afraid to cry.

I am afraid of getting attached.
I am afraid  of falling in love.
But I don't want to be afraid anymore.
I built the walls up so no one could come in.
But you're the one person I want to break the walls for.
To let you in and then built then back up so you will stay in.
To keep you as long as you want to stay.
So if you go I will tell you so to not to leave my side.
I push you away to only keep you safe but I want you here in my heart to stay.
But I kept pushing you away.
So baby please just try and stay.
I try so hard to keep you in my life.
Just because I want you in my life.
But I kept pushing you away.
But please stay.

Reviews

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

"I know I can't even handed myself.
So I was amazed that you could handed me."

I think maybe handed was supposed to be handle? I don't know, it doesn't sound right as it is.

But this is really sad :/ I'm sorry that you're feeling this way.. This poem tells a really heartbreaking but beautiful story.. Great job.

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That was so sad ...
sometimes you should hold your dignity and throw your heart away from you ... and you must never fall down for anyone .. because no one is worth your tears..
well done ...

[Coyote Poetry]

A sad poem. Sometime hard to control emotion. Love and hate can be words apart. Better to hold silence than to create walls that are hard to repair. Thank you for the excellent poem.
Coyote