I Like To Cut.

No haters please.

I'm really fucked up I like it when the red stuff comes up and it feels so good I feel so alive.
Cutting makes me know I am alive.
When life is hell and you have nobody they say they care they say they love you it all a lie.
I like it when I can feel the pain it feels so right.
Am I fucked up if I say I like the pain and when it burns when I cut.
I like how I leave scares up and down and some side ways.
I wont lie I like to do it maybe I'm a little fucked up.
Maybe I am a little Ill maybe I am little of everything.
I make a fist nice and tight so I can get a good cut.
Sometimes blood doesn't come out sometimes it does.
 Maybe I'm little ill maybe I just like the pain.
I cut myself not everyday but when I do it deep and it burns.
It funny how something that so bad can feel so good.
I love the pain I love the feeling I get.
Maybe someday I be okay.
And I will forget all the bad things that people said.
But today I'm going to cut instead.
I'm all alone in this world.
Lets think maybe someone will care someday.
Just maybe someone anyone.

Author's Note

WARNING
Cutting can be a parent's worst nightmare which often comes by surprise so please do not do what I said in this poem thank you.

Reviews

[Amandaaa Caroline (:]

Wow... I'm sorry that you're going through this and feel that way :( I hope you get through it... Me myself, I've never cut, but this part I can relate to...

"When life is hell and you have nobody they say they care they say they love you it all a lie."

I think that people do this to everyone, it's terrible, feeling like you can count on someone but it was just an empty promise.. Well, I hope you get through this and find some people that you can count on, I'm really very sorry that you don't have anyone you can count on :(

[Patrick Henry]

You said it beautifully. I didn't have the heart to "attempt" a comment I know all too well in my OWN life!! ....in the past. -M

[Lina Grey]

I'd like to tell you about how you might regret it, and how I do, and how I managed to quit cutting and become a happier person. Except I didn't, I don't, and I don't know that you will. I wrote about this, too, in my piece "A Darker Art". There's a part of me that knows it's wrong and unhealthy and whatnot, but there's a bigger part of me that enjoys it too much to quit. Cutting's a b***h (excuse my language), and she will destroy you, if you let her. I'm trying to get a hold of it and stop cutting, and I think you should, too. Fourteen years old and already dancing with the devil? maybe that's a problem hun. Maybe instead of warning the rest of us not to do like you do, you should find a way to stop yourself.

[Patrick Henry]

Didn't realize I commented. From someone who has pulled out his vein and cut down to muscle from ankle to hip, and even on others who couldn't do it themselves for whatever reason, I stopped when I pulled my vein out!! I even had the awful privilege of watching someone cut into their intestine. I think what you are doing can only be stopped by you, and in time after many scars you will have to answer for in your future, you will find your OWN reason to stop!! : ) It's destructive what you do, but on such the small scale.... it borders on "cute". Just don't do it. That easy!! lol It's funny how the rest of society will fall in love with a face and personality they THINK they know and love, when all the while there is a storm raging and you feel no one has the right to mess with that. Cutting is not a parent's worst nightmare. Hanging nude with barbed-wire around your neck from an overpass over the river at the age of 11 is!! Just don't cut. Get a punching bag to mess up!! xoxo -Mark

[BMarcel85]

I've never cut, but as a teenager, eating was my vice...the way that I dealt with what seemed like it was the most important stuff in the world...Years later, I can tell you, whatever you look upon as a big deal at your current age, you will not at all think so highly of later on. Teenage years can be very hard to get through, but this is not the way! Why not get the same "pleasure" from picking up a notebook and writing out your feelings and emotions, like you have here, as oppose to mutilating yourself? The arts can help heal your soul.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree with your Author's note. I was old school. Try to drink myself to death. Hard to do. Lucky body will stop you in some foolish activities. Cutting been around for a long time. Some folks walk the edge. I rather free climb or suicide the ocean. More fun and less scars. Thank you for the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Steven Cash]

I hope you get through it too

[Perfect Mistake]

I really do enjoy this poem for cutting is a great release but it can be bad but you can never realize it at the time. For her wrist is her canvas and her scars are her story is what i like to think. I stopped cutting because of one thing my mom said "i already lost one child i cant bear the thought of losing you" Anyway amazing poem and thanks for sharing :3

[Jordan's Back]

This is an interesting piece, and very informative.