journal poem

Close my eyes

I begin to press the blade to skin

nothing comes out as the skin tears apart

I've bled myself dry from the emptiness inside

Die slow when you're not by my side

You say that you love me

I say I love you too

but is it the same love

Something you don't know

I tell people I have the most beautiful girl in my eyes

Don't know what it is about you that makes me want you so bad

Maybe because you're real

I've given up on finding someone

I've already found the one I want

Just wish you'd want me the same way

I tell you we should go to bed

Honestly all I want to do is hear your voice

hear your laughter

hear you breath

I miss falling asleep with you on the phone

I'm here for you always

you're never truly alone