play by play 2

play by play 2

A Story by diaryofalostcause

I wish I hadn't told her what I was thinking about doing. I made her f*****g cry, I am such a god damn idiot.  Here I am with the most amazing wonderful girl next to me and I fucked it up again.  I wish I could hear her voice I miss hearing it. She started dancing and acting all cute, inside myself I couldn't help but smile I wanted to tell her something but the damn words just wouldn't come out. I am sorry I made you cry, for the last month I have been thinking about killing myself but how do I tell someone that? they'll just throw me in a padded room and just feed me pills.  All I want is some help, help to get through it all but I don't want to be a burden on anyone.  Kels has been asking me why I have been acting so strange and this is why. I want to tell her things but I am afraid of telling her.  I want her in my life forever she's just such an amazing talented person who can get you to smile. For me it's when she kisses my forehead or runs her hand through my hair. That right there gets me to smile and blush so hard.  I seriously hope she comes to see me this weekend I really really need that.  I just want to lay with her and hold her all night, want her to fall asleep in my arms holding me tight, want her to wake up with a smile on her face and knowing I will not leave her.  I want her to tell me not to go that she truly wants me in her life only than will I not leave.  I only have one true friend and that's her and it is her answer that I only care about, I want her to look me in the eyes and I want her to tell me to not go. 

© 2016 diaryofalostcause


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Added on May 20, 2016
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diaryofalostcause
diaryofalostcause

Austin, TX



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We are all lost in this world, The pills block us from reality. We are trapped in our own worlds, why not free ourselves by showing the world. You can do it you can do anything. Show your love spr.. more..

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